Lately, I am feeling that loneliness, that feeling when you feel so down and alone. When you feel the longing to be with someone or something. Yes, I have friends and family but still you search for something that's lacking. It's like a missing piece in a puzzle or a cherry on an ice cream. Have you ever feel that despite the moment that you're in a crowd you feel so lonely inside?
I am feeling that way for months now, and I don't know what to do anymore. I am eating alone, walking alone, strolling alone. I am always alone. Yes, I know I am way too independent that maybe I was used to do things by myself, but sometimes I also need a companion. I also need someone in my life who would do things for me, but then, maybe finding that someone will take some time. Waiting for that someone will take a lot of days, months or even years. But I'm still willing to wait no matter how silly it seems. I know in my heart that there is someone meant for me, I may not meet him now, but I know in the future I will. And I will no longer be forever alone.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Sunday, December 9, 2012
I am YOURs
Why am I Single??
Everyone is asking me this question. "hey, you're already 23, are you still single?" then there's a follow-up question of the big "WHY"? This time I don't know how to answer because they won't take "basta" for an answer. They want me to explain, they want the because of their whys.
Well, I have now the reason why I am single, it is not because that I am too picky or I have a high standard. It is maybe because that I am full of love from the people around me that it is overflowing that I don't have the time to look for more. It is because that I wasn't able to found that someone who could love me like my dad and mom, it is because that I wasn't able to meet that someone who could understand me, who would love me unconditionally and who would do everything to know me deeper, who would love the real me, and not only the things that they see me, I wasn't able to meet that someone who sees through me, through my very soul and my well being. I wasn't able too meet that someone who could love or even surpass the love of God. I wasn't able to meet that someone who could love me without any reason, I wasn't able to KNOW someone whom I can be perfectly imperfect. I know there's still a lot of reason why I am single, because you know what? I am more than happy to spend my time with HIM.
There's still no one on earth who could make me both laugh and cry at the same time. It is only HIM who could make me insane without doing anything. It is only Him who captured my heart and whom I know who will love me despite of my imperfection and mistakes, despite my own failures and bad thoughts. Because in Him I know I am safe and well protected, in Him i have found peace. In Him alone I can be my self, in Him I can be the best. In Him, I could cry my heart out without embarrassing myself. You see, I still wasn't able to find someone whose comparable to Him. I know that there's no one like Him and there's no one on earth who could do those things like He did. But I know, I always know that even if I am single, I will always have Him.
When my time comes and my DADDY won't let me meet the prince charming I am waiting for, then I promise to devote myself to Thee. Thy will be done and not mine. For He said, He had called me by my name, "I love you and you are MINE" then everything I have and will be having, I am willing to let go to follow HIM. I will leave everything on earth to be with HIM, if that's what He wants. For I am a servant of the Lord, though I am a princess, everything that the King asks will be granted.
Everyone is asking me this question. "hey, you're already 23, are you still single?" then there's a follow-up question of the big "WHY"? This time I don't know how to answer because they won't take "basta" for an answer. They want me to explain, they want the because of their whys.
Well, I have now the reason why I am single, it is not because that I am too picky or I have a high standard. It is maybe because that I am full of love from the people around me that it is overflowing that I don't have the time to look for more. It is because that I wasn't able to found that someone who could love me like my dad and mom, it is because that I wasn't able to meet that someone who could understand me, who would love me unconditionally and who would do everything to know me deeper, who would love the real me, and not only the things that they see me, I wasn't able to meet that someone who sees through me, through my very soul and my well being. I wasn't able too meet that someone who could love or even surpass the love of God. I wasn't able to meet that someone who could love me without any reason, I wasn't able to KNOW someone whom I can be perfectly imperfect. I know there's still a lot of reason why I am single, because you know what? I am more than happy to spend my time with HIM.
There's still no one on earth who could make me both laugh and cry at the same time. It is only HIM who could make me insane without doing anything. It is only Him who captured my heart and whom I know who will love me despite of my imperfection and mistakes, despite my own failures and bad thoughts. Because in Him I know I am safe and well protected, in Him i have found peace. In Him alone I can be my self, in Him I can be the best. In Him, I could cry my heart out without embarrassing myself. You see, I still wasn't able to find someone whose comparable to Him. I know that there's no one like Him and there's no one on earth who could do those things like He did. But I know, I always know that even if I am single, I will always have Him.
When my time comes and my DADDY won't let me meet the prince charming I am waiting for, then I promise to devote myself to Thee. Thy will be done and not mine. For He said, He had called me by my name, "I love you and you are MINE" then everything I have and will be having, I am willing to let go to follow HIM. I will leave everything on earth to be with HIM, if that's what He wants. For I am a servant of the Lord, though I am a princess, everything that the King asks will be granted.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Christmas is in the Air!!
Days are so fast that I haven't realized it's already advent, days from now and it's already Christmas. Everyone is so busy, and they're already buying gifts for their family and special someones. The mall is crowded and the traffic is heavy. It's the season to be jolly and to be holy.
You see, CHRISTMAS is very much awaited, almost everybody is looking forward for this day to arrive, especially when you're a FILIPINO, they say that "walang tatalo sa pasko ng 'Pinas" because we filipinos are very traditional and loving, very thoughtful too. We value the gift of family and friends, we value almost everything. But sometimes we tend to forgot the real essence of Christmas, what are we celebrating it for?
CHRISTMAS without CHRIST is just mas--moment of sadness. We tend to feel sad and lonely. Sometimes, we don't even remember that it is the birth of Christ, we are just looking for something that can feed our eyes and earthly wants, we tend to forget our soul and the very essence of the celebration. We forgot that it's not only a time of giving and receiving, it is also a time of forgiveness and peace.
So this Christmas, let us not only feed our body, let us feed our soul, let us celebrate it wholeheartedly, without feeling empty and let's love each other!
You see, CHRISTMAS is very much awaited, almost everybody is looking forward for this day to arrive, especially when you're a FILIPINO, they say that "walang tatalo sa pasko ng 'Pinas" because we filipinos are very traditional and loving, very thoughtful too. We value the gift of family and friends, we value almost everything. But sometimes we tend to forgot the real essence of Christmas, what are we celebrating it for?
CHRISTMAS without CHRIST is just mas--moment of sadness. We tend to feel sad and lonely. Sometimes, we don't even remember that it is the birth of Christ, we are just looking for something that can feed our eyes and earthly wants, we tend to forget our soul and the very essence of the celebration. We forgot that it's not only a time of giving and receiving, it is also a time of forgiveness and peace.
So this Christmas, let us not only feed our body, let us feed our soul, let us celebrate it wholeheartedly, without feeling empty and let's love each other!
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Goodbye Typhoon
Thank you Lord, for sparing us from typhoon Pablo, we never experienced the wrath of mother nature's revenge for mankind, you never let us walk into the waters, you never let your wind destroyed our houses. Thank you Lord for your love for us, I don't know if I am the only one thinking that you're spoiling us? haha! (kidding)
Lord, please help our brothers and sisters in Mindanao who got hit by the strong typhoon, let them know that You are there, that You truly exist. Let them know that You will take care of everything and everything will be alright in due time. Let them know that You love them and You are God, that there is nothing to be feared about. Let them know that You hear their prayers. Lord, please cradle in Your loving arms the people who met their tragic ends, and let them enter Your kingdom. Father God, embrace the family who are left behind and those who needs shelter, food and clothing. We need You, and I know You could hear our prayers.
Thank you DAD! You really are the best! I love you!
Lord, please help our brothers and sisters in Mindanao who got hit by the strong typhoon, let them know that You are there, that You truly exist. Let them know that You will take care of everything and everything will be alright in due time. Let them know that You love them and You are God, that there is nothing to be feared about. Let them know that You hear their prayers. Lord, please cradle in Your loving arms the people who met their tragic ends, and let them enter Your kingdom. Father God, embrace the family who are left behind and those who needs shelter, food and clothing. We need You, and I know You could hear our prayers.
Thank you DAD! You really are the best! I love you!
Feeling So Blessed!
Yeah! It's been so long since my last visit. I missed you, you know. I was just too preoccupied and lazy too. Sorry! It's December already and Christmas is in the air, days to go and viola Jesus will be born!
By the way, I am writing this blog, because I feel so blessed! I really am! I'm so blessed to have friends and family who loves me and cares for me. I have a good sense of direction and common sense too. I have God. There's nothing I could ask for more, because with them, I am complete.
I may not have all the material things this world can offer, all I have are things that money can't buy, happiness, satisfaction, friends, family and a loving God. Who would ask for more? Because with these, I have more than enough. In this lifetime, I will just walk by this earth, everything can be taken away any minute, my life can be cut any moment, I can't bring these things with me, when that time comes, but with your love, and memories. Yeah, no one can take them away from me, and I am thankful for such wonderful things. Thank you so much, for being part of my life.
In HIM, I'm more than happy, contented and because of his overflowing love that I can love others, it is because of his mercy that I could forgive others, it is because of his helping hands that I can serve others, it is because I'm HIS princess that I can be so spoiled! =))
By the way, I am writing this blog, because I feel so blessed! I really am! I'm so blessed to have friends and family who loves me and cares for me. I have a good sense of direction and common sense too. I have God. There's nothing I could ask for more, because with them, I am complete.
I may not have all the material things this world can offer, all I have are things that money can't buy, happiness, satisfaction, friends, family and a loving God. Who would ask for more? Because with these, I have more than enough. In this lifetime, I will just walk by this earth, everything can be taken away any minute, my life can be cut any moment, I can't bring these things with me, when that time comes, but with your love, and memories. Yeah, no one can take them away from me, and I am thankful for such wonderful things. Thank you so much, for being part of my life.
In HIM, I'm more than happy, contented and because of his overflowing love that I can love others, it is because of his mercy that I could forgive others, it is because of his helping hands that I can serve others, it is because I'm HIS princess that I can be so spoiled! =))
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Underdose
I wasn't able to post a blog for weeks and I am guilty that. I was very busy these past few weeks and I always sleep early too. But this time I need to blog, because I know I can't sleep if I can't unload the burden.
Yesterday, we were under staff because one colleague was absent and another one was doing another job, everything was under control until an incident occurred. I was the pharmacist-on-duty and I scanned the doctors' orders and generate cost center slips. I was the one who processed the medication of one patient who happened to be the father of a nurse. By that time, everyone were so busy and every one where doing the usual stuffs. I didn't know who prepared the medication and who gave it to the nurse, I don't remember if I was the one or not. I only remember that I was the one who printed the medication charges.
The nurse, came by the pharmacy to report what happened just this evening. she told us that we gave the station the wrong dosage strength of Augmentin. The medication should be Augmentin 625mg but then her father was given Augmentin 375mg. Her father had it for 4 doses, I don't know what to do because if you look at it, we were at fault, because we should be the last one who will check the medication, and I am just wondering why, they never call our attention when they received the medicine. Because there's a big difference in size between the tablets and appearance. Even if it is your first time and you didn't see a label of the dosage, you should ask your pharmacist or your senior staff if the one given to you were correct.
I am just worried. Because I will never want it to happen with a member of my family, I understand her concern. I am afraid.
Yesterday, we were under staff because one colleague was absent and another one was doing another job, everything was under control until an incident occurred. I was the pharmacist-on-duty and I scanned the doctors' orders and generate cost center slips. I was the one who processed the medication of one patient who happened to be the father of a nurse. By that time, everyone were so busy and every one where doing the usual stuffs. I didn't know who prepared the medication and who gave it to the nurse, I don't remember if I was the one or not. I only remember that I was the one who printed the medication charges.
The nurse, came by the pharmacy to report what happened just this evening. she told us that we gave the station the wrong dosage strength of Augmentin. The medication should be Augmentin 625mg but then her father was given Augmentin 375mg. Her father had it for 4 doses, I don't know what to do because if you look at it, we were at fault, because we should be the last one who will check the medication, and I am just wondering why, they never call our attention when they received the medicine. Because there's a big difference in size between the tablets and appearance. Even if it is your first time and you didn't see a label of the dosage, you should ask your pharmacist or your senior staff if the one given to you were correct.
I am just worried. Because I will never want it to happen with a member of my family, I understand her concern. I am afraid.
Monday, October 1, 2012
October 1st
Its October!!! Days from now and it's sembreak already! I need to make my exams and need to print them out. I am so busy! I forgot to post about my birthday, and other stuffs.
Btw, I am trying to forget someone and something but then, the more I try, the harder it is to forget them!
Btw, I am trying to forget someone and something but then, the more I try, the harder it is to forget them!
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