I just want to share the thoughts of this text message I found in my stored messages. It came from my sister whose a doctor as well as my mentor and one of my inspiration.
Life's survival kit:
>>toothpick<< to remind you to pick out the good qualities in others.
..No matter how bad they may seem, there is always good inside them, there is no pure evil in this world, we just have to see them in a positive and good way to appreciate who they really are. Who are we to judge them? Do we really know them, that we had the right to give some bias judgement? We don't even know their real stories..
>>rubberband<< to remind you to be flexible, things might not always go the way you want, but it will work out.
..you must always be prepared and expect the unexpected, always be ready for the things that might go your way, you will never know what will happen in the future but you must be ready to face it, acceptance, trust and faith in God will help you.
>>band aid<< to remind you to heal hurt feelings, yours or someone's else.
..you must learn to forgive and forget, Jesus himself forgives all of us, and undergone painful experience for our sake, being hurt is part of our lives and we can't sometimes avoid it, we just need to learn how to heal ourselves and if we can heal others, let's just help. If you hurt others, then you must try to heal them, help them, ease some burden, but we can only heal them if we, ourselves are not wounded.
>>pencil<< to remind you to list your blessings everyday.
..every little thing that comes into your life is a blessing, you can never count all the blessings you received and will be receiving, just a little effort of gratitude to the Maker is one way. Being a live is worth listing for, having your family and even just the sun or the rain is worth listing as blessing. Be thankful that God is so thoughtful.
>>eraser<< to remind you that everyone makes mistakes, and it's okay.
..no one is perfect and it's okay to make mistake because we are not GOD. we are human, we are sinners, we just need to accept that in our life we can make mistakes and we can erase them by starting a new life and a new chapter of change. God is a forgiving God and he will understand, and accept you wholeheartedly.
>>chewing gum<< to remind you to stick with God and you can accomplish anything.
..this is the most important part of your survival kit that you must not lose, and must be use wisely. With God, we are invincible, with Him we can do all things that's impossible. God is our only aid, an all around friend, and He will not abandon us, we just have the faith in Him. God is good all the time.!=0
Just remember this life's survival kit, for sure you're safe.!=)
Friday, October 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Famealy Day!
Yehey! This will be my 3rd blog entry this month. A little late to start though. Whoa! It is the after birthday celebration, yes, yesterday was my birthday but I just celebrated it this afternoon with my trustworthy friends.
I should celebrate it yesterday with them but then there's a little change in schedule so it was postponed till this afternoon. (I had a game and meeting the last time, they understood).
I am just a little saddened that I can't treat everyone in my last year with them, so I just treated my close friends. Economy is very unstable at the moment and I really thank my mom for having the initiative to give me some bucks to treat my friends. We are in a tight budget but then I didn't ask for money because I know that my parents have a lot of things to handle especially in money matters. I was not born in a silver spoon and we are not rich. Every penny out of our pockets are counted, maybe I was just born to be a wise spender so I don't have to ask every time for money when I need it. That's the trait my mom is proud of me, she trusts me and she knows that if she would give me a million, for sure there will be something left.
As I type this, I can remember my childhood where I really want to own some business, I'm business minded and I really want to be rich to help others because I know how it is to be poor. I know how people judge you, especially the "matapobre" people of the country and those who are practicing crab mentality. We lived in a small house, "stay where you are" type, but we eat 3 square meals a day. My parents didn't have a degree but I am proud of them because they raised us up well and they are attending to all our needs,they don't want us to suffer, so they sacrifice a lot for us, sweat and skipped meals to look for money, maybe we're just so blessed that we know God and we just trust HIM. Just what my mom said, "we are not rich, and we don't have something to leave behind when we're gone, the only thing that we can give you that can't be taken away by anyone is faith and the education you have, don't hesitate to ask for our help because you are our responsibility and that's what we can do to help you, we can find ways if you badly need financial support, our father in heaven will send His graces for us, don't be shy because we love you" and I always keep that in my mind. But then I just can't help myself to be shy to ask for some because I know their hardships.
So back to my birthday treat,before I cry. Nanay (Love2x), Ate Wan (Charling), Ate Chou(Tati),Ate Tres (Sister), Ate Por (May2x), Mommy (Jen, sister (Nex), Utol (Paul), and our adopted sister (Iana) went to Greenwich Rob after our Phar Ad Class. Sorry for some who had not come with us, even if I want to, I'm on a tight budget. We had fun, we made some fun videos, we talked and laugh out loud as if we own the place, we reminisced our friendships and experiences, we look forward for the future, and that really made me happy, don't worry about money, I can have it afterwards, I just had fun with them and that memory will always be present in my heart so that if I have some memory gap or Alzheimer's in the near future,my heart can still recall the feeling. I just love my friends, and that all matters. Don't worry because once I reach my dream and became rich, for sure I'll treat everyone not only in Greenwich! hehe...
I need to sign off, I'm too tired yet happy this day! Thanks everyone, don't forget to pray and I love you!=)
I should celebrate it yesterday with them but then there's a little change in schedule so it was postponed till this afternoon. (I had a game and meeting the last time, they understood).
I am just a little saddened that I can't treat everyone in my last year with them, so I just treated my close friends. Economy is very unstable at the moment and I really thank my mom for having the initiative to give me some bucks to treat my friends. We are in a tight budget but then I didn't ask for money because I know that my parents have a lot of things to handle especially in money matters. I was not born in a silver spoon and we are not rich. Every penny out of our pockets are counted, maybe I was just born to be a wise spender so I don't have to ask every time for money when I need it. That's the trait my mom is proud of me, she trusts me and she knows that if she would give me a million, for sure there will be something left.
As I type this, I can remember my childhood where I really want to own some business, I'm business minded and I really want to be rich to help others because I know how it is to be poor. I know how people judge you, especially the "matapobre" people of the country and those who are practicing crab mentality. We lived in a small house, "stay where you are" type, but we eat 3 square meals a day. My parents didn't have a degree but I am proud of them because they raised us up well and they are attending to all our needs,they don't want us to suffer, so they sacrifice a lot for us, sweat and skipped meals to look for money, maybe we're just so blessed that we know God and we just trust HIM. Just what my mom said, "we are not rich, and we don't have something to leave behind when we're gone, the only thing that we can give you that can't be taken away by anyone is faith and the education you have, don't hesitate to ask for our help because you are our responsibility and that's what we can do to help you, we can find ways if you badly need financial support, our father in heaven will send His graces for us, don't be shy because we love you" and I always keep that in my mind. But then I just can't help myself to be shy to ask for some because I know their hardships.
So back to my birthday treat,before I cry. Nanay (Love2x), Ate Wan (Charling), Ate Chou(Tati),Ate Tres (Sister), Ate Por (May2x), Mommy (Jen, sister (Nex), Utol (Paul), and our adopted sister (Iana) went to Greenwich Rob after our Phar Ad Class. Sorry for some who had not come with us, even if I want to, I'm on a tight budget. We had fun, we made some fun videos, we talked and laugh out loud as if we own the place, we reminisced our friendships and experiences, we look forward for the future, and that really made me happy, don't worry about money, I can have it afterwards, I just had fun with them and that memory will always be present in my heart so that if I have some memory gap or Alzheimer's in the near future,my heart can still recall the feeling. I just love my friends, and that all matters. Don't worry because once I reach my dream and became rich, for sure I'll treat everyone not only in Greenwich! hehe...
I need to sign off, I'm too tired yet happy this day! Thanks everyone, don't forget to pray and I love you!=)
Birthday 2009
An hour ago after my birthday. Here I am tapping on the keyboards instead of sleeping and dreaming. I just want to put this on writing, my happiness, frustrations and what I really feel.
Yeah! I turned 20, I can accept that I'm out of my teenage years and I am now a young adult. I am happy because I was at home for 3 nights. The first two nights were spent in my elder sister's bedroom because she missed me a lot and the second reason was, we had a visitor so as the usual custom, my room was turned into an instant guest room
(I'm not at home most of the time). On my last night, I spent it at my own room, I missed my bed so much!
My Happiness:
On the 26th day of September I wished to have some chocolates on my birthday and sent some messages to my friends (I'm making pabati-bati). I went to the novena mass and then my mom told us that we will have a visitor, so I made up my room and made it presentable, then we fetch him at the terminal and we ate dinner at around eleven, it's actually a second dinner for me. (That's what I love at home, I can eat the food I want to eat). Then a bag of chocolates came from my cousin. A lot for me to eat! wohoo... Chocoholic!
On the 27th day of September, woke up early and fixed some breakfast, went back to sleep and woke up again to eat. Took a bath and ready myself for some kind of family lunch outside (yeah, an early celebration. Too bad my sister in PGH was not around and my brother in law too). My mom planned to have some food for my friends, then I texted them, a little soon, if only I had known then I should've invited some friends to come over. My sister and I went to have a grocery. I prepared the salad while she cooked the spaghetti. A little something for me after all. Mommy Jen, Aida, Donna, Julyn and Leomar went to our home, while some of my friends didn't come. It was a late invitation though.
The day came, I was watching the BOF finale episode when my phone was bombarded by text messages that wishing me a happy birthday, replied to them and went to sleep. Then early in the morning, still sleepy yet read the messages again, replied and sleep. By 10:00 am I was in the pier ready to go back to school for the 1:00 pm make up class. That turned out to be a no class but an online exam, by 3:00pm we should have the research class but then our teacher didn't meet us up because of some reasons and we understand her a lot.
I didn't know that we had another game, so I went to the gym and ready myself for the said game. I was happy then, we had some 8 points lead from our opponent in the second quarter but then she came and we lost hope. Especially I, who knows my fate when she's around. Bench girl all the same. I was a little frustrated. I don't have something against her but I just can't keep it to myself anymore. I just need justice. I just don't like the way she coach us, she doesn't even know what we can do inside the court in a real game even our names, how frustrating. Then, she's not giving us a fair chance to prove ourselves to be part of the team. I just don't like it, it's the second time I was just seating on the bench and that was the last game we had.I'm sooooo sad that on my birthday, I didn't touch the ball even just for a second, not even stepped on the court, didn't perspire, and I was the only one who just sat there. I feel so down and I pity myself. I'm thinking that it was better that I didn't join the team and just cheer for them together with my friends than be on the team and just sit there as if I don't exist. She doesn't even know my name. It doesn't matter to me if we lost the game or win it, as long as it is fair enough for every member of the team to have fun and enjoy the game. To learn and gain some experience, it is my last year in the university and thanks for the uniform. Sorry, I just can't help myself from thinking, if she's not around I can feel the team glow and happy despite the lost games.=(
I was a little frustrate again because the people I expected to remember the special day of my life didn't even greet me. I was so disappointed, I'm trying to think of their excuses why they didn't remember,or if they remember why did they not greet me, maybe they don't have load, they are busy or even they don't have internet at home. But if they don't have load they can borrow from their friends and text at once, a minute is not that long enough though, I saw some of them online and yet not a simple hi or hello was spoken. It's ok for me but then I just don't understand that they can remember me when they need something, they can get my number if they are in trouble, they can chat with me about nonsense things but then they can't greet me.
Maybe I'm being childish here but I don't need gifts,I need friends, real friends. Friends who are there through thick and thin, up or down, in good and bad times, friends who will never abandon me, a simple happy birthday is enough, and then I can't receive it. Other people whom I don't know even greeted me, and I'm thankful for them.
Ok, enough of this sentiments, I should be happy not only today but because I am a happy person and just a little sleep and I'll be fine, by the way, I know his name now, another wish came true. God is with me all the time, and I still have my family and my trustworthy friends..=)
Yeah! I turned 20, I can accept that I'm out of my teenage years and I am now a young adult. I am happy because I was at home for 3 nights. The first two nights were spent in my elder sister's bedroom because she missed me a lot and the second reason was, we had a visitor so as the usual custom, my room was turned into an instant guest room
(I'm not at home most of the time). On my last night, I spent it at my own room, I missed my bed so much!
My Happiness:
On the 26th day of September I wished to have some chocolates on my birthday and sent some messages to my friends (I'm making pabati-bati). I went to the novena mass and then my mom told us that we will have a visitor, so I made up my room and made it presentable, then we fetch him at the terminal and we ate dinner at around eleven, it's actually a second dinner for me. (That's what I love at home, I can eat the food I want to eat). Then a bag of chocolates came from my cousin. A lot for me to eat! wohoo... Chocoholic!
On the 27th day of September, woke up early and fixed some breakfast, went back to sleep and woke up again to eat. Took a bath and ready myself for some kind of family lunch outside (yeah, an early celebration. Too bad my sister in PGH was not around and my brother in law too). My mom planned to have some food for my friends, then I texted them, a little soon, if only I had known then I should've invited some friends to come over. My sister and I went to have a grocery. I prepared the salad while she cooked the spaghetti. A little something for me after all. Mommy Jen, Aida, Donna, Julyn and Leomar went to our home, while some of my friends didn't come. It was a late invitation though.
The day came, I was watching the BOF finale episode when my phone was bombarded by text messages that wishing me a happy birthday, replied to them and went to sleep. Then early in the morning, still sleepy yet read the messages again, replied and sleep. By 10:00 am I was in the pier ready to go back to school for the 1:00 pm make up class. That turned out to be a no class but an online exam, by 3:00pm we should have the research class but then our teacher didn't meet us up because of some reasons and we understand her a lot.
I didn't know that we had another game, so I went to the gym and ready myself for the said game. I was happy then, we had some 8 points lead from our opponent in the second quarter but then she came and we lost hope. Especially I, who knows my fate when she's around. Bench girl all the same. I was a little frustrated. I don't have something against her but I just can't keep it to myself anymore. I just need justice. I just don't like the way she coach us, she doesn't even know what we can do inside the court in a real game even our names, how frustrating. Then, she's not giving us a fair chance to prove ourselves to be part of the team. I just don't like it, it's the second time I was just seating on the bench and that was the last game we had.I'm sooooo sad that on my birthday, I didn't touch the ball even just for a second, not even stepped on the court, didn't perspire, and I was the only one who just sat there. I feel so down and I pity myself. I'm thinking that it was better that I didn't join the team and just cheer for them together with my friends than be on the team and just sit there as if I don't exist. She doesn't even know my name. It doesn't matter to me if we lost the game or win it, as long as it is fair enough for every member of the team to have fun and enjoy the game. To learn and gain some experience, it is my last year in the university and thanks for the uniform. Sorry, I just can't help myself from thinking, if she's not around I can feel the team glow and happy despite the lost games.=(
I was a little frustrate again because the people I expected to remember the special day of my life didn't even greet me. I was so disappointed, I'm trying to think of their excuses why they didn't remember,or if they remember why did they not greet me, maybe they don't have load, they are busy or even they don't have internet at home. But if they don't have load they can borrow from their friends and text at once, a minute is not that long enough though, I saw some of them online and yet not a simple hi or hello was spoken. It's ok for me but then I just don't understand that they can remember me when they need something, they can get my number if they are in trouble, they can chat with me about nonsense things but then they can't greet me.
Maybe I'm being childish here but I don't need gifts,I need friends, real friends. Friends who are there through thick and thin, up or down, in good and bad times, friends who will never abandon me, a simple happy birthday is enough, and then I can't receive it. Other people whom I don't know even greeted me, and I'm thankful for them.
Ok, enough of this sentiments, I should be happy not only today but because I am a happy person and just a little sleep and I'll be fine, by the way, I know his name now, another wish came true. God is with me all the time, and I still have my family and my trustworthy friends..=)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Who Is He?
It’s been a long time since I opened this blog… and it’s full of cobwebs, I believe. I would just like to share what I feel about my so called obsession with this guy-JAY CHOU!
When and where did I met him?
I first noticed him, when I watched the movie “SECRET” in mysoju (I think, I totally forgot!) and I find this guy cute, I was all eyes and ears while watching this… I find the girl cute too. Then, this guy captured my interest when he played the piano in a very expert and captivating way. That was then, I searched for this guy whenever I have the time..=)
I stated in my previous blog that I want a guy who can play at least 2 musical instruments. This guy can play the piano,cello,guitar,drums,etc.
I want someone who could sing in tune. This guy can sing and dance. He can rap and compose songs. This guy is so talented that he made me hope that there will be someone who might be like him. Someone who could be my ideal guy.
He can do kung fu and play sports excellently. I wonder, if there are things that he can’t do. He may not be that handsome but he’s someone I look forward to meet and he’s one of the guy that fits my description. But I know that he’s just my ideal guy but not the guy meant for me. He’s about 31 and we had a huge age gap. He’s in Taiwan while I’m stuck here. That’s enough for today, because I need to make another one in a minute.. Hehe… I just hope I could meet him!
When and where did I met him?
I first noticed him, when I watched the movie “SECRET” in mysoju (I think, I totally forgot!) and I find this guy cute, I was all eyes and ears while watching this… I find the girl cute too. Then, this guy captured my interest when he played the piano in a very expert and captivating way. That was then, I searched for this guy whenever I have the time..=)
I stated in my previous blog that I want a guy who can play at least 2 musical instruments. This guy can play the piano,cello,guitar,drums,etc.
I want someone who could sing in tune. This guy can sing and dance. He can rap and compose songs. This guy is so talented that he made me hope that there will be someone who might be like him. Someone who could be my ideal guy.
He can do kung fu and play sports excellently. I wonder, if there are things that he can’t do. He may not be that handsome but he’s someone I look forward to meet and he’s one of the guy that fits my description. But I know that he’s just my ideal guy but not the guy meant for me. He’s about 31 and we had a huge age gap. He’s in Taiwan while I’m stuck here. That’s enough for today, because I need to make another one in a minute.. Hehe… I just hope I could meet him!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Give It Your Best Shot!
Hmmm… I think I’m in the mood to write right now. Three in a row! Wahaha… As promised, I will be writing about my ideal date or something… or how I want to be courted (yudee!). It may be so much but not too much! hehe…
i already listed down ten on my notebook, hmmm ( I was doing some scribble on my notebook when I am bored and thought that these things would come in handy), okay, let me start. First on my list was star gazing, yeah I know it is a vague one. I love the stars and the moon, in short I love the sky especially if the stars are so good to look at, when they glimmer in the dark and the moon looks like it is smiling upon you. I can still remember the time when Solar System was my favorite part in Science, I just love the space and thought I could be an astronomer. In short, I want to see some constellations because I haven’t tried that. As an autistic, whenever I am lonely and when I look at the sky, I will forget my loneliness, instead I am dreaming of my bright future (so better back off and don’t ruin it! wahaha!)
Secondly, well I think I really love the natural way when the sun rises and sets. I want to see the sun rise, as in wait for it to come up, and I want to see this in the highest part, or maybe in the land of the rising sun, Japan. To experience what it feels like to see the sun rises in that part, and as well I want to see it sets, where twilight is coming. I like to feel what it feels to see it with someone special, but i think it’s the most common romantic thing.
Hmmm… since I like to write, I want someone to write some poetry or a short story for me, I like to read letters and cards, I know it is too simple yet some can’t do it really well. I also want to be in a place where poetry or story is being read. Maybe he can read me what he wrote or just my fave book- just read with feelings and facial expression (wahaha… so cute!)
I love music, well, I really do love it! So I think you know what I mean. Wahaha… Sing me a song, like my dad always do. I want a guy who knows how to play an instrument, a musical instrument like the guitar, piano or drums or whatever, and do it really well. I know how to play the guitar and I also want someone who can jam with me! nyahaha… Music and books take my boredom away. So be ready to sing, especially when you visit me, cause you can’t go home without singing.=)
My friends like to surprise me, then I want someone who can surprise me. He must know something about what I like and what I don’t, make friends with my friends so that you’ll have an access (kunchaba! hehe). Create your own style!
Another nature related… I love nature so I want a nature trip, from the bluest ocean to the highest mountain! wahaha… I want to have a joy ride, go to different cities, provinces or wherever! I just want to go somewhere, even to the moon! Be ready and pack your bags!=)
Okay, I’m still a girl! I thought I was a boy ever since! Playing with boys about my age, playing boys stuff and all, I love cars and whatever… But as an irony, I also love flowers, I love to talk to them. Another autism! I love to see blue roses or a dozen of tulips, or even a cherry blossom tree! wahaha… I want to see them and touch them to know if they are really real. I don’t want plastic flowers. Real flowers may wither, but the joy they bring will never fade.=)
Since I was young, I get fascinated by tree houses, read about them in a romantic story and I want to live in a tree house. I want to stay in a tree house and talk about each others’ lives. Watch the stars and feel the air! Woohoo!
I love to eat, I love to cook but I want someone to cook for me! Hmmm… Just like my dad who cooks deliciously, I want someone who can cook well and who can make me happy through his homemade cooking! I would really appreciate it, because not all guys can cook well. Yummy!
The usual thing, I want someone to have the same religion with me and my family, same relationship with God as mine! I want to go to church with him and listen to the preacher and not to talk with each other. I want to deepen the relationship whose foundation is the best, it is because it is founded by BIG DAD! And I know Big Dad loves me more than I!
There’s a lot more but it all depends upon whom! But I know and I am not afraid that I will fall for a foe, because I am Big Dad’s countess and He will never allow someone to hurt me. He will never give me to just anybody until he proves himself worthy! Big Dad loves me, so beware. Hmmm… Karma is just lurking around, better be good! wahaha…
That’s all folks! ’til next time, I will formulate another write ups…=)
i already listed down ten on my notebook, hmmm ( I was doing some scribble on my notebook when I am bored and thought that these things would come in handy), okay, let me start. First on my list was star gazing, yeah I know it is a vague one. I love the stars and the moon, in short I love the sky especially if the stars are so good to look at, when they glimmer in the dark and the moon looks like it is smiling upon you. I can still remember the time when Solar System was my favorite part in Science, I just love the space and thought I could be an astronomer. In short, I want to see some constellations because I haven’t tried that. As an autistic, whenever I am lonely and when I look at the sky, I will forget my loneliness, instead I am dreaming of my bright future (so better back off and don’t ruin it! wahaha!)
Secondly, well I think I really love the natural way when the sun rises and sets. I want to see the sun rise, as in wait for it to come up, and I want to see this in the highest part, or maybe in the land of the rising sun, Japan. To experience what it feels like to see the sun rises in that part, and as well I want to see it sets, where twilight is coming. I like to feel what it feels to see it with someone special, but i think it’s the most common romantic thing.
Hmmm… since I like to write, I want someone to write some poetry or a short story for me, I like to read letters and cards, I know it is too simple yet some can’t do it really well. I also want to be in a place where poetry or story is being read. Maybe he can read me what he wrote or just my fave book- just read with feelings and facial expression (wahaha… so cute!)
I love music, well, I really do love it! So I think you know what I mean. Wahaha… Sing me a song, like my dad always do. I want a guy who knows how to play an instrument, a musical instrument like the guitar, piano or drums or whatever, and do it really well. I know how to play the guitar and I also want someone who can jam with me! nyahaha… Music and books take my boredom away. So be ready to sing, especially when you visit me, cause you can’t go home without singing.=)
My friends like to surprise me, then I want someone who can surprise me. He must know something about what I like and what I don’t, make friends with my friends so that you’ll have an access (kunchaba! hehe). Create your own style!
Another nature related… I love nature so I want a nature trip, from the bluest ocean to the highest mountain! wahaha… I want to have a joy ride, go to different cities, provinces or wherever! I just want to go somewhere, even to the moon! Be ready and pack your bags!=)
Okay, I’m still a girl! I thought I was a boy ever since! Playing with boys about my age, playing boys stuff and all, I love cars and whatever… But as an irony, I also love flowers, I love to talk to them. Another autism! I love to see blue roses or a dozen of tulips, or even a cherry blossom tree! wahaha… I want to see them and touch them to know if they are really real. I don’t want plastic flowers. Real flowers may wither, but the joy they bring will never fade.=)
Since I was young, I get fascinated by tree houses, read about them in a romantic story and I want to live in a tree house. I want to stay in a tree house and talk about each others’ lives. Watch the stars and feel the air! Woohoo!
I love to eat, I love to cook but I want someone to cook for me! Hmmm… Just like my dad who cooks deliciously, I want someone who can cook well and who can make me happy through his homemade cooking! I would really appreciate it, because not all guys can cook well. Yummy!
The usual thing, I want someone to have the same religion with me and my family, same relationship with God as mine! I want to go to church with him and listen to the preacher and not to talk with each other. I want to deepen the relationship whose foundation is the best, it is because it is founded by BIG DAD! And I know Big Dad loves me more than I!
There’s a lot more but it all depends upon whom! But I know and I am not afraid that I will fall for a foe, because I am Big Dad’s countess and He will never allow someone to hurt me. He will never give me to just anybody until he proves himself worthy! Big Dad loves me, so beware. Hmmm… Karma is just lurking around, better be good! wahaha…
That’s all folks! ’til next time, I will formulate another write ups…=)
The Reason of Being Single
What’s my view about it. Well, love is a single word that has millions of meaning. It is either subjective or objective. People I know would usually ask me if I am in a relationship, but the answer is usually the same- a shrug and this statement “NBSB or no boyfriend since birth” , we made a group named, SISA_single and satisfied… Well, I think I am full of love that despite being single I can and still live. I don’t need someone to complete the puzzle.
Yes, for the sake of an argument, everybody needs someone. “No man is an island” as what saying goes, but it depends on how you look at it. From your own perspective and your own decisions. Why is there someone who can happily live being single all their life? It is because, they find solitude there, they find peace and they are pacified for the fact that if no one is with them, there is always God.
Why is there someone who is in a relationship that is not happy or contented? It is because, they don’t have contentment, they lack something and they keep on finding it through different relationships, and some people only opted to have a relatioship in order to be “in”, or for their own personal sake, have they realize that they are giving injustice to the other party? Have they realize that in a way or another they can hurt someone? Well, they should have think first before they act.
I maybe young, I maybe ideal, believing in happy endings and believing that there is someone really meant for me, he may not be my ideal count but he may be the one sent from above. I promised myself that if I have to love someone, I should only love one, and if there will be a guy that will probably be a part of my life, I will make sure that he is the one, now, in the future and if ever the time after forever. He will be the 4th guy who will be always special. God, dad, and ahia(big brother), it will never be replace by him.
Watching romantic films and reading novels makes me think and hope that there is and will be someone whom can I call my soul mate, my knight, my count and my dream boy… But I suddenly realize that there is no perfect relationship and pain is always present. As well as, in this time, I think that the clan of Adan were blacklisted! Love, it is what Jesus wants us to have, He died because of love, but can someone really sacrifice himself and his happiness for my sake? I asked that very often. I am still waiting for an answer!
I am happy being single, and I don’t know what to do if I have someone to take care of? I was used to be the one who is always taken cared of. I just want someone who will love me like my dad, who will protect me like my brother and who will be there every time I need help and who will be my healer when I’m in pain like my best friend-Jesus.
I maybe imagining things that’s bound to be lost in space. I may not be in a relationship, but I know how it feels to be in one. I have friends and I’m not that stupid or numb not to feel. But, I think I am just immune to cheesy lines and my brain knows its boundaries. The emergency button is always ready for assistance.
I may admire celebrities, stars or even not, but I think it is just up to admiration and friendship, is the only relationship I can offer at the moment. Someone told me that, soon enough I will open my heart and mind for the possibility of meeting the Harry Potter of my life, well, I am always open but I just can’t break my promise!
What is that promise? Of course, my parents are strict and they want us to finish our studies first before getting into a relationship, and I really promised my family and myself to accomplish what I want in my life and what I really wanted to do before engaging myself into another tangle.
Lastly, I still didn’t find the man who is strong and brave enough to cross the bridge. ( Next blog, what I want in a man and how I want to be courted! Toinx)
Single is never dull! Single is better than a relationship that will lead to a broken heart…=)
Yes, for the sake of an argument, everybody needs someone. “No man is an island” as what saying goes, but it depends on how you look at it. From your own perspective and your own decisions. Why is there someone who can happily live being single all their life? It is because, they find solitude there, they find peace and they are pacified for the fact that if no one is with them, there is always God.
Why is there someone who is in a relationship that is not happy or contented? It is because, they don’t have contentment, they lack something and they keep on finding it through different relationships, and some people only opted to have a relatioship in order to be “in”, or for their own personal sake, have they realize that they are giving injustice to the other party? Have they realize that in a way or another they can hurt someone? Well, they should have think first before they act.
I maybe young, I maybe ideal, believing in happy endings and believing that there is someone really meant for me, he may not be my ideal count but he may be the one sent from above. I promised myself that if I have to love someone, I should only love one, and if there will be a guy that will probably be a part of my life, I will make sure that he is the one, now, in the future and if ever the time after forever. He will be the 4th guy who will be always special. God, dad, and ahia(big brother), it will never be replace by him.
Watching romantic films and reading novels makes me think and hope that there is and will be someone whom can I call my soul mate, my knight, my count and my dream boy… But I suddenly realize that there is no perfect relationship and pain is always present. As well as, in this time, I think that the clan of Adan were blacklisted! Love, it is what Jesus wants us to have, He died because of love, but can someone really sacrifice himself and his happiness for my sake? I asked that very often. I am still waiting for an answer!
I am happy being single, and I don’t know what to do if I have someone to take care of? I was used to be the one who is always taken cared of. I just want someone who will love me like my dad, who will protect me like my brother and who will be there every time I need help and who will be my healer when I’m in pain like my best friend-Jesus.
I maybe imagining things that’s bound to be lost in space. I may not be in a relationship, but I know how it feels to be in one. I have friends and I’m not that stupid or numb not to feel. But, I think I am just immune to cheesy lines and my brain knows its boundaries. The emergency button is always ready for assistance.
I may admire celebrities, stars or even not, but I think it is just up to admiration and friendship, is the only relationship I can offer at the moment. Someone told me that, soon enough I will open my heart and mind for the possibility of meeting the Harry Potter of my life, well, I am always open but I just can’t break my promise!
What is that promise? Of course, my parents are strict and they want us to finish our studies first before getting into a relationship, and I really promised my family and myself to accomplish what I want in my life and what I really wanted to do before engaging myself into another tangle.
Lastly, I still didn’t find the man who is strong and brave enough to cross the bridge. ( Next blog, what I want in a man and how I want to be courted! Toinx)
Single is never dull! Single is better than a relationship that will lead to a broken heart…=)
Oh! I hate This!!!!
Think… Think… Think… (I’m thinking what to write! I’m so lost for words, even Mr. Webster can’t help, nor the Encarta!).
I’m just visiting this blog of mine, I forgot what I’m about to share or to write or something… (I don’t know what it is, maybe my partial and selective amnesia was triggered!)
HMmmmm…. I can’t remember anything to post! This sucks! What a crap, a managaing editor of the college department yet can’t compose a blog of her own experiences! What a shame!=(
Ok, since I glanced at the picture on our dresser, I remember the latest Harry Potter movie… Hmmm… I was a little bit disappointed, no! I was frustrated! I expected a lot from it! It seems like almost all fans were disappointed not only me and my beloved sister. I watched it on the premiere even if its costly and I’m not feeling well enough still, I went to watch it! (I’m trying to forget this!) But Harry looks so nice there especially after drinking the felix felicis, and went to see Hagrid! =)
Hmmm…Now, I remember! My brain is finally working though my neurons causes a lot of problems for me. For the past months and weeks, I keep on coming back to the hospital and laboratories for my lab test, while I am always seeing a doctor! Whoa! If how many pesos left my pocket every time I do these, I don’t know and I’m not counting cause it hurts a lot! I have this bruise on my arms… After the injection! Take note, both!
What else??? Oh yeah! I have a very long quiz in Pharmacology and Therapeutics 2, tomorrow and I don’t know what to study first and how will my brain absorb all information I will store into it. Take note, it’s just a quiz but it’s a big deal for us, cause once you fail, it will be harder for you to catch up on your grades. I will read the lecture notes from page 15 to page 50. It is just a quiz, because the exam on Tuesday will be a lot longer, the whole lecture notes and a 30+ pages from the previous lectures. How good is that? IT is our life! Sleep for us is a blessing! Sleepless nights are normal for us, we are looking forward to it every now and then, not only on exam weeks but the entire school year! =)
The main reason is getting to the finish! I cried a lot this afternoon without knowing what caused the tears to fall. They just keep on falling, like the water on a falls or a faucet! I keep on asking myself why? Yet no matter what I do, I just can’t figure out, I just can’t find the answer. It is better to answer a dosage problem than to answer my query. I just don’t know! Now, I’m lost again!
I don’t know how to finish this but I must stop right now, because my stomach is grumbling from hunger! See you on my next post!=)
Headaches…
July 11, 2009 • No Comments (Edit)
Oh no! I’ve been having this on and off headaches since jun and will turn a month on the 14th… I just don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m sick and tired yet, I don’t know what’s the real score about my health! I’ve been taking medicines and a medicine kit is always inside my bag, that’s why, I don’t go out without a bag.
I just don’t understand, I’ve changed my glasses because I thought that it will stop the headahces I have… I had this complicated status about my eyes, yet the headaches didn’t go away… I was so doomed! I need to study til late at night but I can’t just because of this stupid headache that I need to fight… I would just sleep to keep myself away from the pain, but sometimes even if I sleep, I can’t get rid of HA… I am sacrificing my studies due to my health, yet I don’t know what to do…
I need to see a specialist, yet this afternoon, all the specialist in Bacolod is not around. I was not checked! What if I had this something in my head and my life is in danger? I need to find this doctor in Iloilo because I can’t go home for almost a month or two because of thesis writing and Pharmacology classes every Saturday for the whole month of August! Oh crap!
I am diverting myself to happy thoughts to forget that I have this HA… Yet no matter what I do, I can feel the pain. It is not triggered by the rays of the sun nor the radiation coming from this monitor, or even from too much of watching tv because we don’t have a tv in our room in Iloilo… Not even by reading books. Because sometimes even if I just sit around and listen to my teachers talking and making lectures I can feel the pain.
My sister asked me to rate the pain, when I experienced the first excruciating pain, it was more than 10, but the super “kulit” headaches I’m having it is about 6-7 or sometimes more than that! oh no!And I am really wondering why is it that the pain seems to rotate in every lobe of my head. Sometimes I can feel it in my frontal lobe,sometimes in my temporal…
I hope that I can reach all my dreams before I say goodbye to this not so good world! I need to be strong! I need to know what’s the cause of this crappy headache…
I’m just visiting this blog of mine, I forgot what I’m about to share or to write or something… (I don’t know what it is, maybe my partial and selective amnesia was triggered!)
HMmmmm…. I can’t remember anything to post! This sucks! What a crap, a managaing editor of the college department yet can’t compose a blog of her own experiences! What a shame!=(
Ok, since I glanced at the picture on our dresser, I remember the latest Harry Potter movie… Hmmm… I was a little bit disappointed, no! I was frustrated! I expected a lot from it! It seems like almost all fans were disappointed not only me and my beloved sister. I watched it on the premiere even if its costly and I’m not feeling well enough still, I went to watch it! (I’m trying to forget this!) But Harry looks so nice there especially after drinking the felix felicis, and went to see Hagrid! =)
Hmmm…Now, I remember! My brain is finally working though my neurons causes a lot of problems for me. For the past months and weeks, I keep on coming back to the hospital and laboratories for my lab test, while I am always seeing a doctor! Whoa! If how many pesos left my pocket every time I do these, I don’t know and I’m not counting cause it hurts a lot! I have this bruise on my arms… After the injection! Take note, both!
What else??? Oh yeah! I have a very long quiz in Pharmacology and Therapeutics 2, tomorrow and I don’t know what to study first and how will my brain absorb all information I will store into it. Take note, it’s just a quiz but it’s a big deal for us, cause once you fail, it will be harder for you to catch up on your grades. I will read the lecture notes from page 15 to page 50. It is just a quiz, because the exam on Tuesday will be a lot longer, the whole lecture notes and a 30+ pages from the previous lectures. How good is that? IT is our life! Sleep for us is a blessing! Sleepless nights are normal for us, we are looking forward to it every now and then, not only on exam weeks but the entire school year! =)
The main reason is getting to the finish! I cried a lot this afternoon without knowing what caused the tears to fall. They just keep on falling, like the water on a falls or a faucet! I keep on asking myself why? Yet no matter what I do, I just can’t figure out, I just can’t find the answer. It is better to answer a dosage problem than to answer my query. I just don’t know! Now, I’m lost again!
I don’t know how to finish this but I must stop right now, because my stomach is grumbling from hunger! See you on my next post!=)
Headaches…
July 11, 2009 • No Comments (Edit)
Oh no! I’ve been having this on and off headaches since jun and will turn a month on the 14th… I just don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m sick and tired yet, I don’t know what’s the real score about my health! I’ve been taking medicines and a medicine kit is always inside my bag, that’s why, I don’t go out without a bag.
I just don’t understand, I’ve changed my glasses because I thought that it will stop the headahces I have… I had this complicated status about my eyes, yet the headaches didn’t go away… I was so doomed! I need to study til late at night but I can’t just because of this stupid headache that I need to fight… I would just sleep to keep myself away from the pain, but sometimes even if I sleep, I can’t get rid of HA… I am sacrificing my studies due to my health, yet I don’t know what to do…
I need to see a specialist, yet this afternoon, all the specialist in Bacolod is not around. I was not checked! What if I had this something in my head and my life is in danger? I need to find this doctor in Iloilo because I can’t go home for almost a month or two because of thesis writing and Pharmacology classes every Saturday for the whole month of August! Oh crap!
I am diverting myself to happy thoughts to forget that I have this HA… Yet no matter what I do, I can feel the pain. It is not triggered by the rays of the sun nor the radiation coming from this monitor, or even from too much of watching tv because we don’t have a tv in our room in Iloilo… Not even by reading books. Because sometimes even if I just sit around and listen to my teachers talking and making lectures I can feel the pain.
My sister asked me to rate the pain, when I experienced the first excruciating pain, it was more than 10, but the super “kulit” headaches I’m having it is about 6-7 or sometimes more than that! oh no!And I am really wondering why is it that the pain seems to rotate in every lobe of my head. Sometimes I can feel it in my frontal lobe,sometimes in my temporal…
I hope that I can reach all my dreams before I say goodbye to this not so good world! I need to be strong! I need to know what’s the cause of this crappy headache…
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