I am ME!!!

I can’t sleep and I don’t intend to sleep either. I will attend the dawn mass later and I need to finish studying PHARMACEUTICAL MARKETING! It’s very long and there’s a whole lot to memorize. The book is just plain boring with all the hundrends and thousands of words to read. I need just a little break from reading, so here I am tapping the keyboard, and I missed this blog!

WELCOME TO THE BLOGOSPHERE!!!

Before I went to this blog, I was posting a bulletin, and I thought that instead of putting it in the bulletin that can only allow 4000 characters, and I know it’s not enough for all the words and the things I need to say. I just posted something about someone whom I think I love??? (WHOA! It’s just a cliche… I am honestly single and waiting for him to come).

I am just a girl, yes, I know I’m a little bit a hopeless romantic kid, who believes in happy endings and “ideal guy” that may or may not exist in reality. I am jolly and happy, I laugh at the most shallow things I could see or hear, or sometimes even to myself! I sometimes cry to the most corny and sad romantic stories. I love to read romance as well as other themes, ( I actually love to read), I believe in magic and fairies. I do believe in the existence of angels and of course of GOD. I may be ideal, I believe that there’s always good in everyone, even though some may act so rude. I smile a lot, talk to strangers, trust my heart to whoever, give my friendship to everyone, smile at everybody (though sometimes it really hurts), I may be sometimes dumb and numb, I may be at times smarter than you think or even the most stupid person you’ve ever talked to. I am so complicated yet so simple. I may be kind of difficult to read or too easy to understand. I am ironically made. I may fall in love easily and in the end may fall out too, but when I love a person, I love that person wholeheartedly no matter what that person thinks of me or even if they will not reciprocate the love I gave them. I am very understanding and sometimes I get pissed off too! I sometimes just erupt like a volcano when my patience reach its limits. I am loving, and playful.I love music and art (though I don’t really know how to draw), I really appreciate the work of art and I really love to write (I admit, I’m not that good enough), and read literary pieces by different writers, may it be poems to short stories to novels and fantasies!

* I like guys who are smart and witty, good in numbers and who could write (literary work) with correct grammar! (As if my grammar is perfect). Who are also good in strategy games and who could speak even just a little of CHINESE and JAPANESE (it’s okay if it’s broken)…
* I also like a guy who could play at least two musical instruments and can sing as well… (violin,piano,cello,guitar,and drums are highly recommended)…
* Then, also the one who could dance (a very plus points)
* A guy who could play a sport (any ball game, especially basketball and soccer or tennis)… I want him to be sporty…
* A guy who could cook meals for me (I don’t to do all the cooking, I also want to be serve to)
* A guy who could tame me yet who could give in to my pleas! (I want to be spoiled…joke)
* A guy who would attend mass with me and my family…
* A guy who could understand me and can compliment my weakness…
* A guy who would line up the cinema booth just to get a ticket for the movie I like to watch
* A guy who will fight for his love for me
* A guy whom I can laugh and cry with
* A guy who will not be jealous for my friends
* A guy who will love my family
* A guy who will hug me when I’m depressed and will just listen to what I am saying and will comment after
* A guy who will tell the world how much he loves me
* A guy who will change his bad ways just for my sake
* A guy who will understand that I have my own world
* A guy who will sing for me when I’m down
* A guy whom can I call in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep
* A guy who knows how to pray and trust GOD
* A guy who could not fly but can walk with me
* A guy who could surprise me even in an ordinary day
* A guy whom I could watch anime with
* A guy who will support every thing I do
* A guy who will accept me for who I am
* A guy who will do everything he can just to be with me, just to see me smile and just to prove that he loves me
* A guy who will not get jealous to the people that i may have a crush on
* A guy who will trust me and be faithful
* A guy who could take a joke
* All I need is a guy, strong enough not to leave me… I don’t need a superman, all I need is a man, a man strong enough to prove his love!

I am me, I am ideal, I am optimistic, I am faithful and I trust in BIG DAD’s judgment. I know that he’s looking for the perfect “count” just for me and I know that he’s on his way to find me, I know that I will meet him one of this days, if not, I know for sure that BIG DAD is just waiting for me to mature so that I could handle the situation if the time comes, I know for myself that I’m not yet ready to meet him. I know that in the perfect time and place the perfect timing will come and I will have my own happy ending with the one DAD sent for me and made for me, the one who could compliment me and the one meant for me. I know that he is looking for me too. And I don’t need to wish upon a star because God’s plan is still the best blue print ever made! And my love story will soon end in “and they live happily ever after”.

In love with you

Hmmm... I really don't know how to construct the first sentence of this paragraph or this blog... I just don't know what will I type... I keep on deleting the words I've typed. I wish there's someone to dictate me the words to keep me going.

I had a dream this afternoon, and it was so good. I had good dreams these past few days, but I really don't know the meaning of the dream, if it is a continuation of my previous dreams or a new one.

My dream is actually bizarre, I've dreamt of someone not familiar but whose face and smile made me feel like I've known him forever, like I can be who I am with him, someone who complete the puzzle, I can remember clearly his face but the sad thing was, when I woke up, I can't remember him, but the feeling of love is still present.

I don't know if it happens to everyone else, but I really don't understand what I feel for my dream guy, because that's the usual case for him in my dreams, that when I woke up I can't see his face (it's blurred in my memory) but the way my heart beats and the way I feel is different (somewhat alive or real).And I know that the guy in my dreams is just one guy!

Maybe I'm in love with him, even if I haven't seen him at all... But all I need to do is wait and be patient for the one sent by BIG DAD!=)