How Sad

I don't really know what to say and what to think. I'm just too tired to understand how the hell did they do it. I don't know their reasons and I don't know why they had to murder someone. A doctor here in Bacolod was murdered days ago, and frankly speaking he's a relative of ours (but we're not that close but he was with my sister doc). It was all over the news and there's a lot of version coming out. Yes, he was definitely a gay, but then he can't do the things he was accused of. Then, the brutal video came out, the suspects were the one who set up the camera and they had it all planned out. They were so high in drugs and their minds were all fogged up. I am so sad and I feel so bad about it, about what happened to my poor grandfather. He was a very good doctor, he was kind. I just can't believe that people like these murderers really do exists in our world, and I really hope that if they can live on earth and do these miserable things to others, if they can't be locked up in jail because the other one is a minor, I really, really hope that they will rot in hell and they will experience the pain and agony that never cease. I am praying for justice and peaceful rest for Dr. Andres Gumban Jr. You will always be remembered. I am praying for the fast acceptance of his family,friends and colleagues. I am praying for the soul of the killers. I am praying for the conscience of the mastermind (if there was). I am praying for everyone that it may not happen and it will never happen to anyone.

Acetaminophen = Paracetamol

I don't know what I should do with ignorant people. A nurse called my fellow RPh telling her to serve the patient acetaminophen, so the pharmacist checked the patient drug profile and told the nurse that the patient was given ALVEDON as the brand. The nurse asked the pharmacist why is it that the patient was given Alvedon when in fact the order was acetaminophen, so he was answered that acetaminophen and paracetamol are the same, that in the states it was called acetaminophen and in our country it is paracetamol. Here is the conversation they had: IGNORANT nurse: teh kilanlan pa gali sang patient magpa states para maka bakal acetaminophen. HUMBLE pharmacist: sir, wala ta acetaminophen diri sa Pilipinas, kay paracetamol na siya, parehas lang na sila. Kay kung sa states ka, wala man na to sila paracetamol. Basi ang doctor na nagprescribed sa States nag practice and na carry over ya lang diri ang acetaminophen. IN: teh ano ang mga brand sang acetaminophen bi? HP: Tylenol pero 500mg ang order so gin gaan siya Alvedon. IN: basta sure ka na isa lang na sila kay bag-o lang ko kabalo na ang acetaminophen kag paracetamol parehas lang, bal-an mo may liver failure na ang patient, indi na siya pwede magaan paracetamol, kung ano matabo sa patient ikaw masabat? HP: oo, sure ko, kag kabalo na ang doctor. kung amo ni tanan na nurse ka ignorante, ano na lang matabo? Just because you didn't know that acetaminophen and paracetamol are the same you will not believe the pharmacist? Lihog lang da ah, daw ikaw pa kabalo sa pharmacist ba, halin sang 1st year kami ya, amo na na gina liwat liwat sa amon, ikaw ya bag-o pa lang kabalo na rihas lang sila? tani nag thank you ka man lang sa information na nabal-an mo. Lihog lang basa-basa man ay... Kay kung kamo magsala daw wala lang eh no? kay kung kami magsala big deal dayon! Amo na dutay lang pharmacist, kay dutay lang may common sense kag maalam, ang kabalo manumdum. amo na damo nurse kay damo man kamo tanga mo. kay kung indi kamo tanga, wala kamo nag kwa nursing, kay kabalo kamo na ang inyo census high kag ang ma accomodate sa inyo na work gamay lang, madas-ok gid kamo, teh diin tupa niyo? CALL CENTER! Tani nag isip kamo na, kung maging nurse ko sa ulihi, diin ko ma ubra, kag pila ang akon opponents sa slot? teh kung nagpharmacist kamo, damo pa kamo ubrahan, ligwa pa ang botika kag hospital, damo ga open na pharmacy schools, may pharmaceutical labs pa. Indi man sa suya or sa pagpakanubo sa kapwa ko professionals, pero subong lang gid ko kasapo mga professionals man tuod pero daw wala ka agi breeding. (if you just knew the attitude of the vip doctors and nurses in the hospital I work, you will understand what I feel and what I'm talking about). That's why I never regret and will never ever regret the profession I chose! Kung may LPU man gid na RPh ilisipon lang, pero damo gid pulugpugon na RN.

What A Waste

Today, I feel so sad, disappointed, frustrated, and I just can't help but cry. I cried not because I am angry, I cried because I feel so bad about something I did specially for the mothers and in the end was thrown away to the garbage bin by someone who left his mind at home. I wrote letters to the mothers in our department, I wrote them by heart. I had my night duty, and went to buy flowers then came back to the hospital just to give the flowers to the mothers on duty and left the ones who had their off, expecting that they could receive it the following morning, but then to my shocked and a bad surprise, all of the flowers that were left were all gone!! All of my efforts, my time, thoughts and money were wasted, were trashed. I really feel so bad about it, I feel so bad that I just cried my heart out. You know the feeling that you can't do something about what happened, that you really thought everything will turn out right but then there will always someone who will mess up the play, who will mess the whole setting and then the time is up and you can't undo the things he had done. You can't take back the lost time and the lost effort. I can't make another letter as the one I did, the thoughts may be the same but the way I wrote it will never be. The thought and the timing will never be the same. If yesterday was the chance that I have been waiting for, then I missed it and I don't know when will I have the chance again or if there will be another chance for me to have. Just because that mother's day had passed and the flowers were still there, it doesn't mean that I can't give them flowers anymore, so he had to throw it away and he knew that there were letters attached to each of the flowers. If he had to throw the flowers, lest he should throw the letters. GRRRR! If I have to count what I lost, I would just fret and I can't move on. I guess I learned a lesson, and I need it so that next time I know what I'll do when the time comes. I just realized that I'm still a child inside.

A Little Light Will Do

Sometimes, all you need is a little light for you to find the right way and make the right decisions. Sometimes, all you need is a little light for you to follow what your heart tells you.

let me FALL!!!

I just want to thank BIG DAD for HIS creation!!! He really is amazing, until now, I keep on wondering why HE made this world so great!!! I am really appreciating every little good thing nature has to offer, especially the refreshing water coming from this FALLS!!! I just had the coolest splash this SUMMER!

There will always be a blue sky.

Smile

Someone made me smile today, despite everything that went by. I like the way we talk and the way we laugh. I like the way we converse though we know that we're too shy to look at each other. I like the way we are-FRIENDS! That's all we'll ever be, I know that for sure. Though sometimes, it hurts that we could never be more than what we have. Still, I like the way we are. I like the way we could tease each other and tell each other things we could never say to anyone else. I am happy because he found the one he could spend his forever with. I am happy that he found the girl his looking for, he finally found someone he could cherish for the rest of his life, and I am so happy that I found a friend in him. Though everyone could tell that we look good together, I am certain that it is better if we're just friends, because friendship lasts for a lifetime while a relationship could end in a split of seconds and some may never be back to what it used to be. People may say that if it's not yet our time, maybe in the future. But, I really believe that my someone is just waiting for me out there, that he's patiently looking for me and will come no matter how long it would take. I have been waiting way too long, and a little longer would not hurt. So, keeping the smile while it last. =)

Friendships

Friendships last for a lifetime and I am so blessed to have them!!! We may not see each other that often due to hectic schedules, we may not call or text or BBM or tweet or chat, but then we still have the bond, no one can break, we may be miles apart but still our friendships' strong! Though the picture lacks 1, 2 or more friends, it doesn't mean we forgot them, 'cause deep in our hearts, we will be friends forever, through good and bad times, reminiscing life when we could not afford to watch movies, but now we could enjoy the zipline. Friendships, thanks a lot for the memories even amnesia can't erase! =)

Kindly Read!

I'm just curious why do men, treat girls so special when in fact she's just a friend to him? Why give her a special treatment above anyone else, when you already have someone? Why make her feel you like her when you already know that you're already taken? Why would you send sweet messages and quotes but then it was sent to all? Why? Why let her fall when you're not ready to catch her? Why let her feel loved when you already love someone else? What do you really want? Let her fall and leave her hanging? We can't really avoid these circumstances because there are really guys who treats someone special but then he just likes her as a friend, he makes her feel so different among the rest but then he already have someone. Girls, can't be blamed if they fall in love with nice guys and those good guys who treats them well because girls could be so vulnerable and so assuming sometimes. Who would take the blame if one way or another someone would be in pain? Will the guy accept the consequence? Will he take responsibility for treating a girl so special and then giving her false hopes when in fact he's taken? Will he take the blame for making her fall for him and in the end let her know that he can only offer her friendship and nothing more? Will the guy be able to say that the girl is special for him but then that's just it? Or will the girl be able to say "hey, it's my fault because I assumed that he feels something for me, he likes me more than a friend. He didn't tell me that he already has someone." Will the girl be able to say that she's too dumb and naive to fall for him even just because he's so sweet, just because of the simple text messages or the simple hellos and sweet smiles? Will their friendship be the same or will there be a gap? So, guys, please, just please don't let someone fall for you because you make her feel special even though she's not, don't let her have false hopes because it will cause pain and don't break your friendship. Let her know your real intentions, if you just want her to be your friend, let her know beforehand. Tell her about your girlfriend, so that no matter what happens, she knows her limitation, that she's just a friend and most girls will choose friendship over a relationship that's going nowhere!

One True Love

Shinichi Kudo, I just want to greet you a pleasant birthday! I wish you all the best in life, and I just want to let you know that, you will always be my one true love. The one I never had and will never have (maybe). I still love you, no matter what! I just want to make you happy, even if it's not with me, because I know that RAN loves you so much and will always wait for you to come back no matter what, and I admire her patience and loyalty. Shin, even though you're just a fictional character, you inspired me a lot and I want to thank you! I also wish, that I may also find someone like you, someone to love and someone who will take care of me. Someone I could truly call my ONE-TRUE-LOVE! OTANJOUBI OMEDETTO GOZAIMASU SHINICHI-SAMA! AISHETERU!!!