quotes to ponder

These following quotes came from a retreat when I was still in first year college... I was then at Mater Carmeli Ladies Dorm, I actually posted this blog on friendster, I just want to transfer it here. Just want to share what I've learned, because it is so inspiring.

* if you lose your simplicity,you will lose everything

Do you agree with this statement? I strongly agree, because no matter how rich you are or no matter how expensive things you have, you will never be satisfied. We tend to forget who we are, it is only in Jesus that we can be truly happy, it is only in Him that we can have everything we desire.=)

* don’t be a blame thrower,be a problem solver

Let's not blame others for the work not done or for the bloopers we had, because we have our own decision and free will, use it to improve things. Let's just think of something which can help resolve the problem and help find a solution. You also have some share in the bloopers right? Either you did not help and just stare, then blame the others or you did your best but then they throw it up? Just keep your calm and pray.

* speak up your mind because others are not mind readers

Well, not all people are like Jean Grey or Professor X. They can't read what your mind is thinking, if all of the people are like that, there will be no secrets and surprises, there will be no thrill, and there will be no mystery. Sometimes, you need to speak what you are thinking, so that they can have a piece of your mind. It is sometimes your own fault that you don't like a thing that is happening because you didn't speak your mind that you like it. You just keep silent. Just make sure you think first before you speak to avoid conflicts.

* dont desire on the height of your passion

Yeah! If you're on the height of your passion, you can't think clearly, you just think of the positive things on your mind but not the consequences, we can never know what we can do in this state.

* don’t just aim to be high,aim to be strong

Just like a tower, no matter how tall it is if it is not strong and sturdy it has the biggest possibility to fall. Like us, no matter how tall we are or no matter how far we had gone, if we have no foundation, we will fall back. We need faith in God, to go forward, to be in a pedestal and to be strong enough to face all problems and pass through boundaries.

What I Am Wishing For

What I Am Wishing For

August 12th, 2008 by harby

Time flies so fast. It is now August, a month after, I will be a year older. I am now a junior, about 19 months to wait, and I will march on stage to receive my diploma, hopefully (I know I can make it through, Big Dad will never let me down).

I am 18 years and 11 months old… On the 28th day of September I will turn 19, the last year of my TEEN-life. As I can remember, I don’t care if there is a celebration or not. I am just looking forward for the people to remember the date when I was born. I am contented to be with my family during that day, but as we all know that I am about 27 nautical miles away from home, an hour or so by means of a seacraft, I can’t be with them on the exact date, but it’s all right. I am still happy, we can still celebrate it a day or two after or earlier than the exact.

As I grow up, I can always feel that I am loved by them, that I am taken cared of. That no matter what happens, they are on my side and that I can always lean on them, that they are there when I am down and if my will to continue would die down. No matter what happen, they will always be my family and we will always be one.

I just don’t know why I keep on typing about them, when I intended to put my wish list on… Maybe I am just missing them or there is nothing to wish for–I have them and I have God, what else? I have friends and I am studying, I am just so blessed.

To continue my purpose, I would like to share what I really wish for (materially):

• Books

1. Eragon, Eldest and Brisnger- will be release on September 20 (Christopher Paulini)
2. Book authored by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (Sherlock Holmes- the new one, 3 series in a book…)
3. A book written by Paulo Coelho (anything authored by him)
4. Count of Monte Cristo (I saw the movie, now, I want to read it)
5. A dictionary (maybe English, Chinese, Japanese or French)
6. Princess Diaries series
7. Harry Potter series (though I have read all… Just for collection and for investment)
8. Breaking Dawn,Twiligh,one moon( I forgot the author, but the cover is a pawn)
9. Remington: The Science and Practice of Pharmacy 21st Ed, or 15th( I have the 20th, and it is good, though I haven’t finished reading this bible for pharmacist)
10. Mythical Creatures
11. Recipe Book
12. Book authored by Mitch Albom (except Tuesdays with Morrie, I have read it recently)
13. Lastly, BIBLE… (I want to read all of it, and I want to live it)

• Board Games (to exercise my wit)

1. a Chess Board
2. Games of the General
3. Scrabble
4. and the one you can think of

• Gadgets and Gizmos

1. a Laptop
2. a watch (either of these: silver,blue,black or white)
3. iPod video 80Gb or more (black or white)
4. a car (Lamborghini, Ferrari,Jaguar or Toyota… the one that you can race)
5. sony psp slim (black!)

• Can’t afford and impossible wishes

1. A house and lot
2. trip to JAPAN, Taiwan and LONDON (cruise around the world)
3. the car mentioned above
4. a yacht
5. to fly a plane
6. to be in 2 places at once
7. to stargaze
8. to dance in snow
9. to sing in water
10. to have world peace

• from the heart

1. a poem
2. chocolate
3. bouquet of flowers
4. story of my life (how naughty,kind or whoever I am for them)
5. a song

• ultimate wishes

1. to be a R.Ph.
2. to die as a saint (nyahaha…what do you think?)
3. to have a closer relationship with God
4. safety of my family,relatives and friends
5. world peace again… love thy neighbors
6. to have wings and a halo (angel for short)
7. I am a princess… I should have a prince… the chosen one… from Big Dad… (not now…I’m busy with my toxic schedule and I can’t handle them right now…lolz)
8. a Lot of Sleeeeeeppppppp….

I posted this blog a month earlier for you to save for this…lolz… I posted this blog actually to remind myself to strive hard to get this, if not given heartily… wahaha… the rest remains to my prayers…

Don’t disappoint me, as if a lot of people are reading my posts… hehe… it’s ok, I know that not all of you are born with a golden spoon and fork in your mouth… I understand… But this blog is for myself and for Big Dad… Next thing I would do is to put this on a balloon and send it to heaven… Have a nice day. =)

Excitement Down the Drain!

Excitement Down the Drain!

November 4th, 2008 by harby

Have you ever experienced that in a while you are getting excited and in a blink of an eye that excitement would run down?!

It was 21st of August 2008 when early in the morning my cellphone vibrated, I didn’t know who the sender is, I just open it and read the message. It was actually a mms (I think you know what mms means), it was a pregnancy test showing a positive result because it has 2 red lines visible to your bare eyes. “Hello tita lyn2, tito borge and tita baby!” It was the line that capture my half awaken self. I suddenly jumped out of bed out of excitement and happiness that there will be a new member of the family.

I am going to be an aunt in a short time,but that thought and excitement were now swifly going down. November 1, was the day my beloved sister saw spots,of course she’s afraid (it was her first!) but did not show it I know. The next day,she was resting until I went back to school. November 3, was the day that she texted me if I was okay, I can sense it that she is not, so I asked back the question, it was then I was caught off guard by her message “the baby stopped growing on its 9th week and now we can’t hear its heartbeat”.

I didn’t know how I managed to reply to her, when all I can feel is the flowing of hot tears down my cheek, the wetness of my eyes and the lump I can feel in my throat. I can still remember that day that my groupmates and I visit a hospital to ask for dextrose bottles for our laboratory that I saw a baby, (no! babies, they were twins!) I actually said that “Ooh! Look at that baby, she’s cute”, while thinking that soon enough I can hear baby’s laughter when I will be home.

I cried that night,hard enough (but thanks to my wonder eyes that you will see no trace of crying,after I woke the morning after) I wonder if my sister is okay,if she can bear it(they can bear,together with her husband).

I know that all of these are just trials our family have to go through, I know we can make it,my sister would. Maybe God has a better plan(yes! He always have the best plan). I know that there will be more blessings to come, maybe next time it would be a twin. I am not losing hope because I know that Big Dad will not abandon us, He means no harm, and He loves us very much.

Soon enough, I will be an aunt. Maybe, another year or two for me to be the “baby” of the family, extended! Yeah! Maybe after I pass the Pharmacy board exam, I will mature a little and turn over my crown as the baby to my future nieces or nephews. I know, I will be so happy to be their aunt, to give gifts, to carry them on my hands, to embrace them,give them milk when they are hungry, and make them laugh, as my “dichi” did to me when I was young.

I will promise that I will graduate and pass the board not to anybody else but to myself! I want to prove to myself that I can do it and I will be a pharmacist, I can fulfill my promise to my parents and I can help others too, I admit that I have learned little,but I know that little knowledge will turn into big, I am now serious enough to fulfill my dream, the slacking time is now off! Here I am now, a future pharmacist!

This paragraph is intended for my big sister, Dichi, it’s okay if we lose the baby now, I am still here, your Baby forever. No matter what happen,we will never leave you, don’t worry we will call John Lloyd again and ask him to flash his cutest smile for your future baby. I may not say it often but i know you know that I love you,we love you. Big sis, you can do it,we are praying for you. I recovered from my heart operation,you should too… We were raised to be strong,we are strong,you are strong! I know you are, just keep on thinking that we are here and I will lend you my line “Why would I be afraid,Jesus is with me!” (nga-a makulba.an ko kay ara si Jesus sa akon!) Remember this line?! Your baby will be there to guide us,our angel! So keep the faith burning! Smile and be happy!=)

Christmas Season...

I can feel the cold breeze on my bare skin. Soothing through my bones, feeling the chill of the wind. Seeing lights everywhere. Hearing songs pleasant to my ears. Christmas is in the air.

About nine days to go before Christmas day, yet we're still having classes, catching up for the experiments that were nor finished. Luckily, exams ended but there are still things to be done before I can call it a break.

What is Christmas? Is it all about giving gifts? Buying new clothes and stuffs? What is it really???

Well, as we all know, the thing that was instilled in our minds when we are still young is, it is the birth of our savior Jesus Christ. It is time for loving and for sharing, but can we not share and love in other times? Is it always be only in Christmas season? All I know is, from the beginning, my parents instilled in me that, it doesn't matter if you receive gifts or not during this time, what matters most is the reason why we are celebrating this so called Christmas... Yeah, it is the Birth of Christ... That's the main reason, we are accepting him, welcoming him...

I am really wondering about gifts, is it really necessary? Almost all people i see are cramming and looking for something to give, expensive gifts.... But it is always the thoughts that counts, not the price... as long as yo give from the heart... People in this world have a million wants, they can never be contented. But you can make people happy by doing something simple as long as yo are into it and you love what you are doing. But of course, it is really nice to receive gifts...

I really am just wondering what can I do to our least fortunate brothers and sisters who can never experience what we are experiencing during Christmas. Not receiving gifts nor sharing food for the noche buena. The children in the orphanage and the oldies in the home for the aged. How do they spend their Christmas? Is there anybody from their family that visits them? Now, I truly realized how blessed and lucky i am that i am not like them, that I have my family to share my Christmas, I have my friends too.

I know, I can do something, I'm used to give children in our neighborhood food during Christmas or New year. It's the tradition of our family to share whatever blessings we had for the year. But i really want to do more.=)

I want to end this first post, because my eyes are too tired to open, need to attend mass tomorrow morning... Have a happy Christmas and a prosperous new year to everyone!!!=)