Excitement Down the Drain!

Excitement Down the Drain!

November 4th, 2008 by harby

Have you ever experienced that in a while you are getting excited and in a blink of an eye that excitement would run down?!

It was 21st of August 2008 when early in the morning my cellphone vibrated, I didn’t know who the sender is, I just open it and read the message. It was actually a mms (I think you know what mms means), it was a pregnancy test showing a positive result because it has 2 red lines visible to your bare eyes. “Hello tita lyn2, tito borge and tita baby!” It was the line that capture my half awaken self. I suddenly jumped out of bed out of excitement and happiness that there will be a new member of the family.

I am going to be an aunt in a short time,but that thought and excitement were now swifly going down. November 1, was the day my beloved sister saw spots,of course she’s afraid (it was her first!) but did not show it I know. The next day,she was resting until I went back to school. November 3, was the day that she texted me if I was okay, I can sense it that she is not, so I asked back the question, it was then I was caught off guard by her message “the baby stopped growing on its 9th week and now we can’t hear its heartbeat”.

I didn’t know how I managed to reply to her, when all I can feel is the flowing of hot tears down my cheek, the wetness of my eyes and the lump I can feel in my throat. I can still remember that day that my groupmates and I visit a hospital to ask for dextrose bottles for our laboratory that I saw a baby, (no! babies, they were twins!) I actually said that “Ooh! Look at that baby, she’s cute”, while thinking that soon enough I can hear baby’s laughter when I will be home.

I cried that night,hard enough (but thanks to my wonder eyes that you will see no trace of crying,after I woke the morning after) I wonder if my sister is okay,if she can bear it(they can bear,together with her husband).

I know that all of these are just trials our family have to go through, I know we can make it,my sister would. Maybe God has a better plan(yes! He always have the best plan). I know that there will be more blessings to come, maybe next time it would be a twin. I am not losing hope because I know that Big Dad will not abandon us, He means no harm, and He loves us very much.

Soon enough, I will be an aunt. Maybe, another year or two for me to be the “baby” of the family, extended! Yeah! Maybe after I pass the Pharmacy board exam, I will mature a little and turn over my crown as the baby to my future nieces or nephews. I know, I will be so happy to be their aunt, to give gifts, to carry them on my hands, to embrace them,give them milk when they are hungry, and make them laugh, as my “dichi” did to me when I was young.

I will promise that I will graduate and pass the board not to anybody else but to myself! I want to prove to myself that I can do it and I will be a pharmacist, I can fulfill my promise to my parents and I can help others too, I admit that I have learned little,but I know that little knowledge will turn into big, I am now serious enough to fulfill my dream, the slacking time is now off! Here I am now, a future pharmacist!

This paragraph is intended for my big sister, Dichi, it’s okay if we lose the baby now, I am still here, your Baby forever. No matter what happen,we will never leave you, don’t worry we will call John Lloyd again and ask him to flash his cutest smile for your future baby. I may not say it often but i know you know that I love you,we love you. Big sis, you can do it,we are praying for you. I recovered from my heart operation,you should too… We were raised to be strong,we are strong,you are strong! I know you are, just keep on thinking that we are here and I will lend you my line “Why would I be afraid,Jesus is with me!” (nga-a makulba.an ko kay ara si Jesus sa akon!) Remember this line?! Your baby will be there to guide us,our angel! So keep the faith burning! Smile and be happy!=)