Mr. Dream Boy

Here I am again...

I want to share this in a very comfortable language.

I watched a movie together with my college friends and it's a Filipino movie.
I just remembered what it was about, and now I am associating myself to have the same sentiments with the girl. (Actually, I found this in my drafts and I don't even remember what movie it was, and I don't know what I will post in this one. I think I just continue this, and let the title of this blog be my entire guide.)

The title is MR. DREAMBOY, so maybe I was about to post something about my own ideal guy or maybe my own dream boy. I just remembered something, when I typed this "dream boy". I want to share to you that there is a certain man in my dreams. I always see him while I'm asleep. Different scenario but same face and same body built-- exactly the same man. But the sad thing is, in my dreams his face is very vivid and very striking to me that I can almost remember every contour of his handsome face, but then whenever I wake up, all of the clear picture will be a blur and the most sad thing is, I can't remember his face no matter how I try. The feelings I've felt in my dreams and when I wake we're the same. What's bothering me, is, only his face was somewhat erased or like a water color that has been smudged. I could remember the dress he wore, how tall he is, how he smile, what he did but then the most important thing in his anatomy is missing--FACE! (I am dreaming of a faceless man.)

I was frustrated with myself and with my memory because I know that I am very good in recognizing someone's face and name. I could remember someone's face even though it's the first time that I've seen them. I could remember my fellow passengers whenever I ride the jeepney. But then, that someone whom I guess could make me happy, whom I think could make me smile is like the only face I could not recognize when I'm awake. It's like the feeling of you know the answer to the question because you stayed up late to study for it, but then you weren't able to answer it because you can't remember it no matter how much you try. Then you'll be disappointed!

I will never lose hope. I know that in time I will surely find my dream boy. I will surely determine his face, and I will know because my heart will tell me and my mind will agree that the one in front of me is the one that I've been dreaming of all these times. I know that when that time comes in the near future, this man will be the only one in my dreams and in my reality. I know and I believe that this man, will truly make me happy and when that time comes I will surely recognize him! TEEHEE

Feeling Lighter!

Today, I feel lighter after my duty. I was assigned to the out-patient pharmacy of the hospital and I was actually happy about it. I was about to eat my dinner when customers were coming, so I helped the clerk, and my dinner could actually wait. I was entertaining an old lady, she's a grandmother and she came from Silay City. She gave her prescription and I read it. She's going to buy HEPABig for new born babies.
Hepabig is a human hepatitis B IG whose indication is a post-exposure prophylaxis following percutaneous exposure, direct mucous membrane hapatitis B tact or ingestion of material containing hepatitis virus or HBsAg in positive individual. And it is a prophylaxis for neonates from HBsAg from positive mothers.
I told her the price of the medicine she have to buy and when she counted her money it was lacking about a hundred or so, and there it goes. I was having this feeling that I can't stop myself from helping her. So I said, it's okay ma'am you don't have to worry. Ako na po ang bahala dito, hindi mo na kailangan pang bumalik at kumuha ng pera. It feels so good to help out especially when you see it in their eyes that you we're like an angel or an answer to their prayers.
I could still remember the time when we had nothing and we really need to ask others for help just to have an operation. I could remember those times when all we have is faith and trust in God, to pray and wait for the go signal from HIM. I feel so blessed that I was not able to undergo what they had undergone now.
Those people who helped us we're our angels and instruments sent to us by God who made it possible for me to have my operation. They we're the answers to our prayers. Now, I am just giving back what I received and I am not looking for anything in return. I am happy just helping others and be an instrument of goodness. I am lucky to be raised well by my parents, raised to be grounded and faithful.
It just feels so great! I hope that baby Aresgado will grow well and healthy. Right now, we just need to help each other and love one another. I hope there is no place for hatred, only peace and love.

I'm A LITTLE UNWELL

Since yesterday, I was in a bad mood and I didn't know why. Maybe I'm just pissed off or a little bit tired of what's happening around me, or maybe because I was not able to do the things I had set my mind of doing because of the circumstances that I had to face where in fact it was not really my fault or my doings.

I woke up early hoping that I could jog but then, I woke up just to go back to the hospital and withdraw my salary only to give it away in less than a minute. Now, I'm broke again. I covered for the shortage in the cash drawer where I didn't know where did the money go. I gave it to my sister and then I only got a yellow bill inside my wallet now.

I met up with some friends/schoolmates and was planning to watch a movie alone when my sister texted me to go home and get some files mailed to her because she forgot to bring it with her. I got pissed off actually, because she knew that those where important then, she left them and asked me to mail it to her? And when I knew that it is only a reservation and a gift certificate to a certain hotel I was mad because my supposed to be date-with-myself was ruined because of some stupid gift certificate where in fact they had already a free accommodation there. What totally made me angry was looking for them.

I went home after sending it via LBC and I cooked our dinner and after I went to sleep and was in panic mode when I saw the time on my phone. It's only an hour before ten and I need to take a bath and eat my dinner because I was not called when they took their dinner. So, I ate my dinner alone (it doesn't matter to me anymore because I'm used to it). I was afraid I'll get late, and the rain was non-stop, luckily my dad always sends me to work.

Then, as I'm having my duty, some nurses whom I-don't-actually-hate-you-I'm-just-annoyed-with-how-you-treat-us, came inside the pharmacy as if they are welcomed! Gee, I need to be patient with them because sometimes they don't know what they are doing, forgive me but I am not good in cursing and I hate myself for being so hot last night. I actually saying that I-want-to-resign-at-this-very-moment, because I want them to feel that it's not easy being a pharmacist and they are just seeing the mistakes made by our department, and if ever they made a grave mistake they are like Pontius Pilate who are washing their dirty hands. I was heating up inside that I want to scream and tell everyone in the face that admit-it-you-need-us, but of course they would not understand our profession.

What made my inside lurch was the fact that there are only few pharmacists in that institution, but then you will actually notice that not all of them are to be trusted with secrets and stuffs, not all of them will help you out and raise you, but some of them will be the one who will pull you down and talk bad things when you're not around. Talk about bad habits and negative things behind your back, your mistakes and bloopers you had that day, and they can't do it in your face! What a shame! And I actually don't know what things they are talking about me, I'm still a newbie! I don't have spies and buggers. But I knew they are talking something about everyone else's.

I had finally watched a movie but then the consequence is, I'm still broke and on the verge of bankruptcy (lol). But I feel better now, when I ate a hearty dinner with my parents and my brother. My cravings for crabs we're met! I will have to wake up early because I was scheduled the morning shift! Six in the morning, and will need to energize my spirit in the afternoon... TEEHEE

1st Day: 10 Random Facts About Me

This is the challenge I took when I read the blog of a friend. So I had also my 1st day: the 10 random facts about myself. I already shared it to my textmates, now it’s time to share it to my blogmates. Here it goes…

 I am a FILIPINO and I’m proud to be one

 I love animes, Asian stuffs, Asian songs, Asian etc.

 A certified chocoholic and a sweet tooth

 Frustrated detective/agent/spy

 I love music and numbers but not so good in arts

 I love to read and my passion is writing

 I love to watch videos of Ryan Higa, Kevin Wu, Wesley Chan, and WongFu Productions

 I love to travel and have adventures

 I can’t live a day without smiling though I’m having a bad mood

 Lastly, I’m a PHARMACIST, this is my calling, this is my pride.

Please watch out for my second day. I need to go my own way….TEEHEE! =)