Since yesterday, I was in a bad mood and I didn't know why. Maybe I'm just pissed off or a little bit tired of what's happening around me, or maybe because I was not able to do the things I had set my mind of doing because of the circumstances that I had to face where in fact it was not really my fault or my doings.
I woke up early hoping that I could jog but then, I woke up just to go back to the hospital and withdraw my salary only to give it away in less than a minute. Now, I'm broke again. I covered for the shortage in the cash drawer where I didn't know where did the money go. I gave it to my sister and then I only got a yellow bill inside my wallet now.
I met up with some friends/schoolmates and was planning to watch a movie alone when my sister texted me to go home and get some files mailed to her because she forgot to bring it with her. I got pissed off actually, because she knew that those where important then, she left them and asked me to mail it to her? And when I knew that it is only a reservation and a gift certificate to a certain hotel I was mad because my supposed to be date-with-myself was ruined because of some stupid gift certificate where in fact they had already a free accommodation there. What totally made me angry was looking for them.
I went home after sending it via LBC and I cooked our dinner and after I went to sleep and was in panic mode when I saw the time on my phone. It's only an hour before ten and I need to take a bath and eat my dinner because I was not called when they took their dinner. So, I ate my dinner alone (it doesn't matter to me anymore because I'm used to it). I was afraid I'll get late, and the rain was non-stop, luckily my dad always sends me to work.
Then, as I'm having my duty, some nurses whom I-don't-actually-hate-you-I'm-just-annoyed-with-how-you-treat-us, came inside the pharmacy as if they are welcomed! Gee, I need to be patient with them because sometimes they don't know what they are doing, forgive me but I am not good in cursing and I hate myself for being so hot last night. I actually saying that I-want-to-resign-at-this-very-moment, because I want them to feel that it's not easy being a pharmacist and they are just seeing the mistakes made by our department, and if ever they made a grave mistake they are like Pontius Pilate who are washing their dirty hands. I was heating up inside that I want to scream and tell everyone in the face that admit-it-you-need-us, but of course they would not understand our profession.
What made my inside lurch was the fact that there are only few pharmacists in that institution, but then you will actually notice that not all of them are to be trusted with secrets and stuffs, not all of them will help you out and raise you, but some of them will be the one who will pull you down and talk bad things when you're not around. Talk about bad habits and negative things behind your back, your mistakes and bloopers you had that day, and they can't do it in your face! What a shame! And I actually don't know what things they are talking about me, I'm still a newbie! I don't have spies and buggers. But I knew they are talking something about everyone else's.
I had finally watched a movie but then the consequence is, I'm still broke and on the verge of bankruptcy (lol). But I feel better now, when I ate a hearty dinner with my parents and my brother. My cravings for crabs we're met! I will have to wake up early because I was scheduled the morning shift! Six in the morning, and will need to energize my spirit in the afternoon... TEEHEE
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