Exhausted--Outlet!

Today,the day I never expect to turn out so bad. I expected it to be something good,something to look forward to, something worth remembering--yeah it was worth remembering (the first time I was assigned to do the standing meds without help! It was so tiring).

Today, I realized so much about work, friendship, real life and hardship. You always start from scratch, until you make a perfect picture. You start from the bottom in order for you to reach the top. You were once a coal until you were polished into a diamond. Our life is full of trials and hardships, full of detours and road blocks. I realized that I haven't experienced everything at all and I realized how blessed I am for having the people who let me experience something new. They let me experience humility (even better), patience, and the courage to never surrender. (Yes, I already experienced them, but being here made me realized that I need more experience before I reach the next level).

I was just sad and a was having a self-pity this afternoon because NOBODY helped me! I was on the verge of crying when I told myself that I could do it. I was sorry for the clerks who helped me prepared the medicines, the delivery was so late. That was because I finished it late, because no one (as in no one) helped me out. But then I realized that, I could never depend on someone all the time, I am the only one who could help myself and I am proud that I finished it alone. ( I was thankful that the clerks never left me).

My sentiments are "wala gid sila nagbulig, pero kung ka barkada gani nila, pila ka station ang ila ma ubra bisan busy pa. Sa akon na first time ko, wala gid mi isa.Pero sige lang, tuloy ang laban. Wala man ko may mahimo, indi ko gusto mag reklamo, kay wala pa ko karapatan. bag-o palang ko, I must be the one to adjust. But tani, help man ko nila bisan gamay. Indi man ko reklamador, gina ubra ko man ang ubra ko. Pero sige lang ah... I must remain a humble servant, indi man sila akon gina serbisyohan, mga patients man... I hope next time I will get the hang of it na. Bisan din lang ko dan gina assign, wala ko pa na master ang isa, next level na dayon. Dasig akon na rotation. HAHA... I was so exhausted but I learned a lot from it.

The New MONEY!!!

I received this new money last Wednesday, but Banko Sentral ng Pilipinas will release it next month to the public... Lucky, I was able to touch the 1st 50php... Will save it in an album! (LOL)

Today is Friday...

Yes, today is absolutely Friday, but I can't say "thank God it's Friday" unlike the times when I was still in school where all I look forward to is the weekend especially if there's no class on Monday (long weekend) because I could go home and spend some time with my family. Now, Friday is like a MONDAY for me. Sometimes, I could not remember what day it is, all the time I am in the hospital Pharmacy, and all I could see are the medicines in the shelves and the patient chart piling in the computer screen (all patient charts are scanned by every station--you need to read it and render what the doctor's orders are) and you may hate the penmanship most of the time especially the one whom you can't fully decipher.

I want to share my experience where I was scolded by a nurse. (It was truly shameful and painful that I was thinking of resignation). I was assigned to be a scanner pharmacist where the job description is to read,interpret and dispense the order of the doctor. I was just a newbie and of course I am not familiar with all the drugs of the hospital and all the therapeutic use, because I am new and I my braincells had their vacation. The remarks was "PLEASE SERVE POST-OP MEDICATION" then I read the medications, as I scroll down, I read "Methergin" 2 tab, TID x6 doses... Then I rendered 12 tablets of Methergin where in fact I should only give 6. I read the number 1(one) as 2... So I gave 12. Then the nurse called the pharmacy, looking for me and she scolded me, she said, "basaha man bi lihog, nakabutang na gid na x6 doses, taga-an mo pa gid ya sang 12" so I said in reply "i-return ko lang mam, sorry kay basa ko sang 1 is 2" and she snapped back "lihog lang da miss ah, ka awat bala na sagay pa i-return2x" I said sorry again.

I felt bad, because when I asked my superiors to read it, they could read it as 2 also, but then because they knew that, they said it's only one. But they didn't blame me for my mistake because they knew I am still in the period of adjustment. I am just ashamed because they are the one who are taking the blame of my faults. I am just lucky that they are there helping me out and for trusting me and my capacity. I am now happy working, though there are still times that it's very tiring and you'll think of quitting, but I am not a quitter and I am learning from my mistakes so that I will not do the same thing again. Luckily, I am improving.

Yes, tomorrow is another day, another 8-hour shift to be done, another adventure to look forward to. I just hope everything will always end up right and well.

I miss you!!!

It's been a while since I last visited this site. I was so lost, I had so many stories to share yet I was not able to. I was not able to practice what I have. I was just writing a journal in my notebook these past few weeks, but blogging is so different from the journal I am having.

I miss tapping the keyboard and thinking what words to type next, what punctuation marks to use and who will read it. I miss telling my adventures, bloopers,happy moments and sad ones to the world though I only have 5 followers.(LOL)

I just hope that I could continue this blog, now that my laptop is back and I have a 24 hour free access to the internet. My only problem is the schedule I have and the feeling (tiredness) I have after. But it's alright. I will try to put something even though it's a single sentence only! haha...

I need to sleep now, I still have an eight-hour duty tomorrow... I miss you blog world!