I am really having a hard time making a blog, I have lots of idea in my mind yet I can't put them into writing. I just love to think of them, to keep them to myself. I am having an emotional conversation with my mother just right now. And my mind keeps on swirling, I am having a homesickness right now! Oh! (Kung di-in nag 3rd year, daw didto pa nag tukar ang pagkabata!)

I really miss my family! I'm dying to see them! (exclamation point gid na ya, nagpapahiwatig ng matinding damdamin!) I am really having a hard time, but a little sacrifice and it will be alright! It is for my future! Hmmm... Speaking of future, I am seeing myself as a pharmacist, if not a doctor maybe! hehe...

When did I decided to take this up?

When I was a child, I really wanted to be a stewardess or a pilot! (nyahaha! I just love to travel!) I even asked my mom, "Nay, nu na ang course na galagaw ka lang pu damo ka kwarta nay man? Gina sweldohan ka bala pu la ka ubra, malagaw ka lang sa iban na lugar haw?" My mom just laugh at me, and told me "la ka handom sa kabuhi mo ya? Mu lang gid na ya? teh maging proud ka na bala sa ulihi?" (kag naghipos ang tanan! hehe). I was a kid then, but my mom really told us to have a dream, to set a goal. To be an achiever. I was an achiever when I was young, but then i don't know what happened to me! I was now an average, as if I am not excelling in what I do! (This is what I hate 'bout myself).

Highschool came, everyone wants to enroll in nursing, planning to take this course up, but I don't know why I don't like to take this up. I don't have love for this course! Yet, I took some entrance exams in schools offering this coourse and passed them all. Then, one evening during the family dinner, they asked me what to take up, looks like I'm caught in the middle, didn't know what to answer, and then I asked back, "nu course ang nami man, except nursing?" Then my eldeest sister suggested PHARMACY! Baby asked, "nami man na nang?" there, my eyes twinkled as if the heaven opened its gate and angels are blowing the trumpets! I have the answer! "Ma Pharmacy na lang ko nay ah! No retreat, no surrender! Sure na!"

That's where it started.. A little conversation, and that's it. My mom is always telling us na kung ano ang nasuguran taposon, bisan ano ka budlay sulungon! Well, here I am... 3rd year and in the second semester... A little bit more and I can finish what Iv'e started. Since that conversation, it was tattoed on my mind and my heart that I will be a pharmacist in the near future! But right now, I am in doubt if I will pass or fail, all I know God has plans for me, He will never abandon me, I am His child anyway!

I just want to share my love letter... Coming from my mom... It was given to me when I was still in first year, when she visited me at the dorm! (Sosyal, sang una ga bisita pa, subong la na!) I will state not entirely the whole letter... But some details, just a part of it!=) She wishes me to study harder because I am now starting to plant the seeds of my future. That my success is also there success. "When the time comes when you feel that you're alone always remember, we are here for you. When you feel that nobody loves you, we are here for you because we love you. God is always there for you! We only want the BEST for you!" I am really touched by my mom's letter... Actually, she just left it at my bed before she went home!

Here's the p.s. of the letter:

Drink your vitamins everyday...
Eat when you're hungry...
Sleep when you're sleepy...
Study when there is need for you to study, do your homework and study for the exams...
Be humble, always give love to others.
The more you give, the more you receive.

I could not ask for more... After weeks or even months of not posting, I came back to my senses and will be returning for more... watch out for the upcoming blogs that will either make you hate me because I'm bad, laugh at me because I'm silly, or love me because I'm a cutie!=)

ps... cheet, ara na blog ko! wahaha! kalma lang kay kung di ko busy ma pa ulan ko blog!=)