I am YOURs

Why am I Single??

Everyone is asking me this question. "hey, you're already 23, are you still single?" then there's a follow-up question of the big "WHY"? This time I don't know how to answer because they won't take "basta" for an answer. They want me to explain, they want the because of their whys.

Well, I have now the reason why I am single, it is not because that I am too picky or I have a high standard. It is maybe because that I am full of love from the people around me that it is overflowing that I don't have the time to look for more. It is because that I wasn't able to found that someone who could love me like my dad and mom, it is because that I wasn't able to meet that someone who could understand me, who would love me unconditionally and who would do everything to know me deeper, who would love the real me, and not only the things that they see me, I wasn't able to meet that someone who sees through me, through my very soul and my well being. I wasn't able too meet that someone who could love or even surpass the love of God. I wasn't able to meet that someone who could love me without any reason, I wasn't able to KNOW someone whom I can be perfectly imperfect. I know there's still a lot of reason why I am single, because you know what? I am more than happy to spend my time with HIM.

There's still no one on earth who could make me both laugh and cry at the same time. It is only HIM who could make me insane without doing anything. It is only Him who captured my heart and whom I know who will love me despite of my imperfection and mistakes, despite my own failures and bad thoughts. Because in Him I know I am safe and well protected, in Him i have found peace. In Him alone I can be my self, in Him I can be the best. In Him, I could cry my heart out without embarrassing myself. You see, I still wasn't able to find someone whose comparable to Him. I know that there's no one like Him and there's no one on earth who could do those things like He did. But I know, I always know that even if I am single, I will always have Him.

When my time comes and my DADDY won't let me meet the prince charming I am waiting for, then I promise to devote myself to Thee. Thy will be done and not mine. For He said, He had called me by my name, "I love you and you are MINE" then everything I have and will be having, I am willing to let go to follow HIM. I will leave everything on earth to be with HIM, if that's what He wants. For I am a servant of the Lord, though I am a princess, everything that the King asks will be granted.