Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Wondering, still wondering

I wonder if you could like me too,
I mean if you could love me too.
I had fallen for you before,
but I think I'm falling for you once more.

I wonder if you could see me too,
The way I stare and look at you.
I wonder if you could feel it too
The way my heart beats for you.

I wonder if you could like me more than a friend,
I always wanted to be your girlfriend
Because it is you, that I always see
But I think you could never see me.

You broke my heart into pieces before
I don't want it to be shattered anymore.
I don't want to make the same mistake
But for you, the risk, I will take.

My head is telling me, to not believe
And I don't want to feel another grieve
My heart wants to take a chance again
Maybe, I am crazy, maybe I'm insane.

I'll tell you honestly, listen very well
In my heart, in there you dwell.
I had loved you from the very start
Together,forever, we will never part

But I had been wrong all along,
In your league, I don't belong.
Now, I had moved on already
I wonder if I could just love somebody?

You came again and you talk so sweet
I told you to stop, but you never quit
Now my heart is skipping a beat
I wonder, you captured me, you did!

Monday, August 27, 2012

Kaibigan Ka lang Naman

     Bakit ka masasaktan, wala ka namang karapatan. Kaibigan ka lang naman di ba? Bakit ka magdedemand? May commitment ba kayo? Kaibigan ka lang naman di ba? Bakit ka magagalit dahil hindi sinagot ang tawag at texts mo, ano ka ba niya? Kaibigan ka lang naman di ba? Bakit ka umaasa, alam mo namang wala kang pag-asa, dahil nga kaibigan ka lang naman di ba? Bakit ka nag-aantay, wala naman siyang pakialam kung matagal ka nang nakatayo. Kaibigan ka lang naman di ba?
      Maraming mga kwento ang nagsisimula sa pagkakaibigan, at marami din namang hanggang kaibigan lang, may mga kwentong nagsimula sa ligawan pero nauwi sa pagkakaibigan na lang, at meron namang mga kwento na masaklap ang katapusan, dahil hindi man lang nagkaroon ng kahit na pagkakaibigan lang.
     Mga kwentong sa pagkakaibigan nagsimula at nagtapos sa pagmamahalan, ang iba nga hanggang kasalan. May mga iyakan at tawanang naganap at nagaganap. Ito ang kwento na gusto ng lahat, ang may happy ending kumbaga. Ito ang kwento ang palaging inaabangan ng lahat, lalo na sa teleserye at sa pocketbook man. Ang kwento kung saan ang leading man ay madedevelop sa leading lady o vice versa. Ang kwento na laging ina-assume na sila na ang magkakatuluyan. Dahil na itatak na sa mga utak natin na ang lahat ay naguumpisa sa pagiging magkaibigan. Katulad na lang halimbawa na, may kaklase kang lalaki at pinakilala mo siya sa pamilya mo bilang kaibigan, tatanungin ng isa sa kanila na, "oh, nanliligaw ka ba sa kanya?" O di kaya "Girlfriend mo na ba ang anak ko?" o ang iba naman ay "sino ka at bakit magkasama kayo?" Kung pasusubalian niyo ito na, "hindi po ako nanliligaw at hindi ko siya girlfriend, wala kaming relasyon MAGKAIBIGAN LANG PO KAMI" sasabihin naman sa iyo na "SA PAGIGING MAGKAIBIGAN NAGSISIMULA ANG LAHAT". (Kita niyo na, hindi naman ito iba pa, ito na talaga ang sa simula pa lang ay tapos na).
     Marami sa atin ay nagsasabi na hanggang kaibigan lang ang kaya niyang ibigay pero hindi rin maikakaila na minsan ay nagkagusto ka rin sa iyong kaibigan ngunit hindi mo lang gusto na masira ang pagkakaibigan niyo dahil sa iyong nararamdaman.  At minsan hindi mo man aminin ay nasasaktan at nagseselos ka rin. Lalo na pag sinabi sa iyo na "salamat dahil naging KAIBIGAN kita" nasa kaibigan lang talaga ang iyong kategorya.
     Mahirap mahalin ang isang kaibigan, lalo na kung ika'y "solo flight" hindi man natin aminin, ito ay katotohanan na hindi natin pwedeng itago at kalimutan, nararanasan at mararanasan. Kung pwede nga lang pigilan, pero kahit minsan mas gumagana ang puso kaysa sa utak natin, at sa huli sisisihin ni utak si puso kung bakit ito nauto. Kaibigan ka lang naman, wala kang karapatan.
    
     


Monday, August 13, 2012

Just a Part

Namumugto ang mga mata ni Harriet dahil matinding kalungkutan. Hindi niya napigilan ang pagtulong muli ng kanyang mga luha habang kausap ang kanyang kasintahan na nadestino sa ibang bayan. "Kamusta ka na diyan Don? Bakit hindi ka tumawag man lang? Kumain ka na ba?" Tuloy-tuloy niyang tanong.

"Ok lang naman ako dito mahal, umiiyak ka na naman ba?" Tanong nito kay Harriet sa malungkot ding boses.

"Alam mo naman na miss na miss na kita, mag-iingat ka diyan ha. Tandaan mo na naghihintay ako dito." Madamdaming pahayag ni Harriet sa kay Don.

Hindi akalain ni Harriet na sa isang iglap lamang ang kanilang masayang pagsasama ay mauuwi sa hiwalayan, hindi ng kanilang mga puso kundi ng kanilang mga presensiya. Hindi niya lubos maisip kung ano ang gagawin sa araw-araw dahil nasanay na siya na nandiyan lamang si Don sa kanyang tabi, kahit pa na hindi naman sa lahat ng oras ay magkasama sila.

Oh No!

August is about to end and I am so short with my posts... I only have 3 posts this month and days are passing so fast. I should work it up. I should think of something so that I could be inspired to write more, to blog more, to post more... think.think.think.

I will dream of someone so that when I wake up I have something to talk about. I have something to post about. I will post something more.......

Just nothing

I had fun watching a movie with an old friend. She's also a pharmacist and she was one of my co-worker before she resigned and transferred to one of the government hospitals where the compensation is higher than ours. We had  a laugh and lots of talks with just an hour or two, but it was worth it. I hope to have another time with her.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Lord Please Spare Us

                   
                                                         
flood in Luzon      


     It has been weeks since it started to rain not only in Manila or most part of Luzon but as well in Visayas region. The rain already stopped here in my city but then it continues in the upper and central part of the country. I am just praying that there will be few casualties and death, because losing some property is hard but losing a family member is even harder. I am praying that the rain would stop and the sky will show Mr. Sun. I am praying that the people will help one another and forget their self-centered nature. I am praying that my friends and relatives and those people who are suffering from these flood will not lose their faith in HIM. I am praying that everything will be alright and everything will be over soon. I am praying to see the purpose in the end. I am praying that The heavens above will spare the country from drowning.

Friday, August 3, 2012

I need another part time job. Where can I get one? The one that will never conflict with my schedule. I badly need money. As in! I really, really need money...