Why Don't You Try?

Sometimes, I am wondering if you and I have something going on between us, but I know we don't have anything, sometimes you act so sweet while at times you act differently. Sometimes, you say words I never expected you to say, and sometimes I expect to hear something from you, but I heard nothing. Sometimes I am wondering why I miss you though there were never a time that we see each other. Sometimes I am wondering why I get jealous where in fact there is no reason why I should. I am wondering why are we like this, though we have nothing to wonder. Because you and I are just plain friends. Maybe, just maybe those little conversations we are having gives me joy, happiness I just can't explain, those little talk about our future make we want to try it out with you, I know that you are not my ideal guy, where in fact you are the total opposite of what I wanted. But then, I just can't help falling in love with you for the nth time. You know me very well and I know you too, but then I am still afraid, because you never said anything about liking me, you always like someone else, those girls that's on your league, while I am just there by your side, as always, as a friend. I am afraid to cross the line, because if I do, I am afraid to lose the friendship that we have, the friendship that I am taking care of, the friendship that is my only connection to you. I am afraid that if I do, we'll lose the friendship and the connection, I am just too damn afraid to lose you, despite the fact that you will lose more if I do.You know, despite the fact that I know you so well, it didn't hinder me from liking you. Now, you will be away for months and I don't know what will happen, I just wish you good luck, God bless and be safe always. By the way, why don't we try it being together when you get back?