Hmmm… I think I’m in the mood to write right now. Three in a row! Wahaha… As promised, I will be writing about my ideal date or something… or how I want to be courted (yudee!). It may be so much but not too much! hehe…
i already listed down ten on my notebook, hmmm ( I was doing some scribble on my notebook when I am bored and thought that these things would come in handy), okay, let me start. First on my list was star gazing, yeah I know it is a vague one. I love the stars and the moon, in short I love the sky especially if the stars are so good to look at, when they glimmer in the dark and the moon looks like it is smiling upon you. I can still remember the time when Solar System was my favorite part in Science, I just love the space and thought I could be an astronomer. In short, I want to see some constellations because I haven’t tried that. As an autistic, whenever I am lonely and when I look at the sky, I will forget my loneliness, instead I am dreaming of my bright future (so better back off and don’t ruin it! wahaha!)
Secondly, well I think I really love the natural way when the sun rises and sets. I want to see the sun rise, as in wait for it to come up, and I want to see this in the highest part, or maybe in the land of the rising sun, Japan. To experience what it feels like to see the sun rises in that part, and as well I want to see it sets, where twilight is coming. I like to feel what it feels to see it with someone special, but i think it’s the most common romantic thing.
Hmmm… since I like to write, I want someone to write some poetry or a short story for me, I like to read letters and cards, I know it is too simple yet some can’t do it really well. I also want to be in a place where poetry or story is being read. Maybe he can read me what he wrote or just my fave book- just read with feelings and facial expression (wahaha… so cute!)
I love music, well, I really do love it! So I think you know what I mean. Wahaha… Sing me a song, like my dad always do. I want a guy who knows how to play an instrument, a musical instrument like the guitar, piano or drums or whatever, and do it really well. I know how to play the guitar and I also want someone who can jam with me! nyahaha… Music and books take my boredom away. So be ready to sing, especially when you visit me, cause you can’t go home without singing.=)
My friends like to surprise me, then I want someone who can surprise me. He must know something about what I like and what I don’t, make friends with my friends so that you’ll have an access (kunchaba! hehe). Create your own style!
Another nature related… I love nature so I want a nature trip, from the bluest ocean to the highest mountain! wahaha… I want to have a joy ride, go to different cities, provinces or wherever! I just want to go somewhere, even to the moon! Be ready and pack your bags!=)
Okay, I’m still a girl! I thought I was a boy ever since! Playing with boys about my age, playing boys stuff and all, I love cars and whatever… But as an irony, I also love flowers, I love to talk to them. Another autism! I love to see blue roses or a dozen of tulips, or even a cherry blossom tree! wahaha… I want to see them and touch them to know if they are really real. I don’t want plastic flowers. Real flowers may wither, but the joy they bring will never fade.=)
Since I was young, I get fascinated by tree houses, read about them in a romantic story and I want to live in a tree house. I want to stay in a tree house and talk about each others’ lives. Watch the stars and feel the air! Woohoo!
I love to eat, I love to cook but I want someone to cook for me! Hmmm… Just like my dad who cooks deliciously, I want someone who can cook well and who can make me happy through his homemade cooking! I would really appreciate it, because not all guys can cook well. Yummy!
The usual thing, I want someone to have the same religion with me and my family, same relationship with God as mine! I want to go to church with him and listen to the preacher and not to talk with each other. I want to deepen the relationship whose foundation is the best, it is because it is founded by BIG DAD! And I know Big Dad loves me more than I!
There’s a lot more but it all depends upon whom! But I know and I am not afraid that I will fall for a foe, because I am Big Dad’s countess and He will never allow someone to hurt me. He will never give me to just anybody until he proves himself worthy! Big Dad loves me, so beware. Hmmm… Karma is just lurking around, better be good! wahaha…
That’s all folks! ’til next time, I will formulate another write ups…=)
Saturday, July 25, 2009
The Reason of Being Single
What’s my view about it. Well, love is a single word that has millions of meaning. It is either subjective or objective. People I know would usually ask me if I am in a relationship, but the answer is usually the same- a shrug and this statement “NBSB or no boyfriend since birth” , we made a group named, SISA_single and satisfied… Well, I think I am full of love that despite being single I can and still live. I don’t need someone to complete the puzzle.
Yes, for the sake of an argument, everybody needs someone. “No man is an island” as what saying goes, but it depends on how you look at it. From your own perspective and your own decisions. Why is there someone who can happily live being single all their life? It is because, they find solitude there, they find peace and they are pacified for the fact that if no one is with them, there is always God.
Why is there someone who is in a relationship that is not happy or contented? It is because, they don’t have contentment, they lack something and they keep on finding it through different relationships, and some people only opted to have a relatioship in order to be “in”, or for their own personal sake, have they realize that they are giving injustice to the other party? Have they realize that in a way or another they can hurt someone? Well, they should have think first before they act.
I maybe young, I maybe ideal, believing in happy endings and believing that there is someone really meant for me, he may not be my ideal count but he may be the one sent from above. I promised myself that if I have to love someone, I should only love one, and if there will be a guy that will probably be a part of my life, I will make sure that he is the one, now, in the future and if ever the time after forever. He will be the 4th guy who will be always special. God, dad, and ahia(big brother), it will never be replace by him.
Watching romantic films and reading novels makes me think and hope that there is and will be someone whom can I call my soul mate, my knight, my count and my dream boy… But I suddenly realize that there is no perfect relationship and pain is always present. As well as, in this time, I think that the clan of Adan were blacklisted! Love, it is what Jesus wants us to have, He died because of love, but can someone really sacrifice himself and his happiness for my sake? I asked that very often. I am still waiting for an answer!
I am happy being single, and I don’t know what to do if I have someone to take care of? I was used to be the one who is always taken cared of. I just want someone who will love me like my dad, who will protect me like my brother and who will be there every time I need help and who will be my healer when I’m in pain like my best friend-Jesus.
I maybe imagining things that’s bound to be lost in space. I may not be in a relationship, but I know how it feels to be in one. I have friends and I’m not that stupid or numb not to feel. But, I think I am just immune to cheesy lines and my brain knows its boundaries. The emergency button is always ready for assistance.
I may admire celebrities, stars or even not, but I think it is just up to admiration and friendship, is the only relationship I can offer at the moment. Someone told me that, soon enough I will open my heart and mind for the possibility of meeting the Harry Potter of my life, well, I am always open but I just can’t break my promise!
What is that promise? Of course, my parents are strict and they want us to finish our studies first before getting into a relationship, and I really promised my family and myself to accomplish what I want in my life and what I really wanted to do before engaging myself into another tangle.
Lastly, I still didn’t find the man who is strong and brave enough to cross the bridge. ( Next blog, what I want in a man and how I want to be courted! Toinx)
Single is never dull! Single is better than a relationship that will lead to a broken heart…=)
Yes, for the sake of an argument, everybody needs someone. “No man is an island” as what saying goes, but it depends on how you look at it. From your own perspective and your own decisions. Why is there someone who can happily live being single all their life? It is because, they find solitude there, they find peace and they are pacified for the fact that if no one is with them, there is always God.
Why is there someone who is in a relationship that is not happy or contented? It is because, they don’t have contentment, they lack something and they keep on finding it through different relationships, and some people only opted to have a relatioship in order to be “in”, or for their own personal sake, have they realize that they are giving injustice to the other party? Have they realize that in a way or another they can hurt someone? Well, they should have think first before they act.
I maybe young, I maybe ideal, believing in happy endings and believing that there is someone really meant for me, he may not be my ideal count but he may be the one sent from above. I promised myself that if I have to love someone, I should only love one, and if there will be a guy that will probably be a part of my life, I will make sure that he is the one, now, in the future and if ever the time after forever. He will be the 4th guy who will be always special. God, dad, and ahia(big brother), it will never be replace by him.
Watching romantic films and reading novels makes me think and hope that there is and will be someone whom can I call my soul mate, my knight, my count and my dream boy… But I suddenly realize that there is no perfect relationship and pain is always present. As well as, in this time, I think that the clan of Adan were blacklisted! Love, it is what Jesus wants us to have, He died because of love, but can someone really sacrifice himself and his happiness for my sake? I asked that very often. I am still waiting for an answer!
I am happy being single, and I don’t know what to do if I have someone to take care of? I was used to be the one who is always taken cared of. I just want someone who will love me like my dad, who will protect me like my brother and who will be there every time I need help and who will be my healer when I’m in pain like my best friend-Jesus.
I maybe imagining things that’s bound to be lost in space. I may not be in a relationship, but I know how it feels to be in one. I have friends and I’m not that stupid or numb not to feel. But, I think I am just immune to cheesy lines and my brain knows its boundaries. The emergency button is always ready for assistance.
I may admire celebrities, stars or even not, but I think it is just up to admiration and friendship, is the only relationship I can offer at the moment. Someone told me that, soon enough I will open my heart and mind for the possibility of meeting the Harry Potter of my life, well, I am always open but I just can’t break my promise!
What is that promise? Of course, my parents are strict and they want us to finish our studies first before getting into a relationship, and I really promised my family and myself to accomplish what I want in my life and what I really wanted to do before engaging myself into another tangle.
Lastly, I still didn’t find the man who is strong and brave enough to cross the bridge. ( Next blog, what I want in a man and how I want to be courted! Toinx)
Single is never dull! Single is better than a relationship that will lead to a broken heart…=)
Oh! I hate This!!!!
Think… Think… Think… (I’m thinking what to write! I’m so lost for words, even Mr. Webster can’t help, nor the Encarta!).
I’m just visiting this blog of mine, I forgot what I’m about to share or to write or something… (I don’t know what it is, maybe my partial and selective amnesia was triggered!)
HMmmmm…. I can’t remember anything to post! This sucks! What a crap, a managaing editor of the college department yet can’t compose a blog of her own experiences! What a shame!=(
Ok, since I glanced at the picture on our dresser, I remember the latest Harry Potter movie… Hmmm… I was a little bit disappointed, no! I was frustrated! I expected a lot from it! It seems like almost all fans were disappointed not only me and my beloved sister. I watched it on the premiere even if its costly and I’m not feeling well enough still, I went to watch it! (I’m trying to forget this!) But Harry looks so nice there especially after drinking the felix felicis, and went to see Hagrid! =)
Hmmm…Now, I remember! My brain is finally working though my neurons causes a lot of problems for me. For the past months and weeks, I keep on coming back to the hospital and laboratories for my lab test, while I am always seeing a doctor! Whoa! If how many pesos left my pocket every time I do these, I don’t know and I’m not counting cause it hurts a lot! I have this bruise on my arms… After the injection! Take note, both!
What else??? Oh yeah! I have a very long quiz in Pharmacology and Therapeutics 2, tomorrow and I don’t know what to study first and how will my brain absorb all information I will store into it. Take note, it’s just a quiz but it’s a big deal for us, cause once you fail, it will be harder for you to catch up on your grades. I will read the lecture notes from page 15 to page 50. It is just a quiz, because the exam on Tuesday will be a lot longer, the whole lecture notes and a 30+ pages from the previous lectures. How good is that? IT is our life! Sleep for us is a blessing! Sleepless nights are normal for us, we are looking forward to it every now and then, not only on exam weeks but the entire school year! =)
The main reason is getting to the finish! I cried a lot this afternoon without knowing what caused the tears to fall. They just keep on falling, like the water on a falls or a faucet! I keep on asking myself why? Yet no matter what I do, I just can’t figure out, I just can’t find the answer. It is better to answer a dosage problem than to answer my query. I just don’t know! Now, I’m lost again!
I don’t know how to finish this but I must stop right now, because my stomach is grumbling from hunger! See you on my next post!=)
Headaches…
July 11, 2009 • No Comments (Edit)
Oh no! I’ve been having this on and off headaches since jun and will turn a month on the 14th… I just don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m sick and tired yet, I don’t know what’s the real score about my health! I’ve been taking medicines and a medicine kit is always inside my bag, that’s why, I don’t go out without a bag.
I just don’t understand, I’ve changed my glasses because I thought that it will stop the headahces I have… I had this complicated status about my eyes, yet the headaches didn’t go away… I was so doomed! I need to study til late at night but I can’t just because of this stupid headache that I need to fight… I would just sleep to keep myself away from the pain, but sometimes even if I sleep, I can’t get rid of HA… I am sacrificing my studies due to my health, yet I don’t know what to do…
I need to see a specialist, yet this afternoon, all the specialist in Bacolod is not around. I was not checked! What if I had this something in my head and my life is in danger? I need to find this doctor in Iloilo because I can’t go home for almost a month or two because of thesis writing and Pharmacology classes every Saturday for the whole month of August! Oh crap!
I am diverting myself to happy thoughts to forget that I have this HA… Yet no matter what I do, I can feel the pain. It is not triggered by the rays of the sun nor the radiation coming from this monitor, or even from too much of watching tv because we don’t have a tv in our room in Iloilo… Not even by reading books. Because sometimes even if I just sit around and listen to my teachers talking and making lectures I can feel the pain.
My sister asked me to rate the pain, when I experienced the first excruciating pain, it was more than 10, but the super “kulit” headaches I’m having it is about 6-7 or sometimes more than that! oh no!And I am really wondering why is it that the pain seems to rotate in every lobe of my head. Sometimes I can feel it in my frontal lobe,sometimes in my temporal…
I hope that I can reach all my dreams before I say goodbye to this not so good world! I need to be strong! I need to know what’s the cause of this crappy headache…
I’m just visiting this blog of mine, I forgot what I’m about to share or to write or something… (I don’t know what it is, maybe my partial and selective amnesia was triggered!)
HMmmmm…. I can’t remember anything to post! This sucks! What a crap, a managaing editor of the college department yet can’t compose a blog of her own experiences! What a shame!=(
Ok, since I glanced at the picture on our dresser, I remember the latest Harry Potter movie… Hmmm… I was a little bit disappointed, no! I was frustrated! I expected a lot from it! It seems like almost all fans were disappointed not only me and my beloved sister. I watched it on the premiere even if its costly and I’m not feeling well enough still, I went to watch it! (I’m trying to forget this!) But Harry looks so nice there especially after drinking the felix felicis, and went to see Hagrid! =)
Hmmm…Now, I remember! My brain is finally working though my neurons causes a lot of problems for me. For the past months and weeks, I keep on coming back to the hospital and laboratories for my lab test, while I am always seeing a doctor! Whoa! If how many pesos left my pocket every time I do these, I don’t know and I’m not counting cause it hurts a lot! I have this bruise on my arms… After the injection! Take note, both!
What else??? Oh yeah! I have a very long quiz in Pharmacology and Therapeutics 2, tomorrow and I don’t know what to study first and how will my brain absorb all information I will store into it. Take note, it’s just a quiz but it’s a big deal for us, cause once you fail, it will be harder for you to catch up on your grades. I will read the lecture notes from page 15 to page 50. It is just a quiz, because the exam on Tuesday will be a lot longer, the whole lecture notes and a 30+ pages from the previous lectures. How good is that? IT is our life! Sleep for us is a blessing! Sleepless nights are normal for us, we are looking forward to it every now and then, not only on exam weeks but the entire school year! =)
The main reason is getting to the finish! I cried a lot this afternoon without knowing what caused the tears to fall. They just keep on falling, like the water on a falls or a faucet! I keep on asking myself why? Yet no matter what I do, I just can’t figure out, I just can’t find the answer. It is better to answer a dosage problem than to answer my query. I just don’t know! Now, I’m lost again!
I don’t know how to finish this but I must stop right now, because my stomach is grumbling from hunger! See you on my next post!=)
Headaches…
July 11, 2009 • No Comments (Edit)
Oh no! I’ve been having this on and off headaches since jun and will turn a month on the 14th… I just don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m sick and tired yet, I don’t know what’s the real score about my health! I’ve been taking medicines and a medicine kit is always inside my bag, that’s why, I don’t go out without a bag.
I just don’t understand, I’ve changed my glasses because I thought that it will stop the headahces I have… I had this complicated status about my eyes, yet the headaches didn’t go away… I was so doomed! I need to study til late at night but I can’t just because of this stupid headache that I need to fight… I would just sleep to keep myself away from the pain, but sometimes even if I sleep, I can’t get rid of HA… I am sacrificing my studies due to my health, yet I don’t know what to do…
I need to see a specialist, yet this afternoon, all the specialist in Bacolod is not around. I was not checked! What if I had this something in my head and my life is in danger? I need to find this doctor in Iloilo because I can’t go home for almost a month or two because of thesis writing and Pharmacology classes every Saturday for the whole month of August! Oh crap!
I am diverting myself to happy thoughts to forget that I have this HA… Yet no matter what I do, I can feel the pain. It is not triggered by the rays of the sun nor the radiation coming from this monitor, or even from too much of watching tv because we don’t have a tv in our room in Iloilo… Not even by reading books. Because sometimes even if I just sit around and listen to my teachers talking and making lectures I can feel the pain.
My sister asked me to rate the pain, when I experienced the first excruciating pain, it was more than 10, but the super “kulit” headaches I’m having it is about 6-7 or sometimes more than that! oh no!And I am really wondering why is it that the pain seems to rotate in every lobe of my head. Sometimes I can feel it in my frontal lobe,sometimes in my temporal…
I hope that I can reach all my dreams before I say goodbye to this not so good world! I need to be strong! I need to know what’s the cause of this crappy headache…
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Here I am Again!=)
Hmmm... Nothing to do, just looking at the monitor and listening to a single song all over again! Oh my! I really miss blogging, but sad to say, our internet connection (wi-fi) can't connect to friendster,facebook,blogspot and other sites with password, we assumed that it was filtered. I really do have so much to tell and I can only express it through writing or blogging...
Early in the morning while I was taking a bath, my imagination started to fantasize and as if I am dreaming while I'm awake... It's the birthday of our nanay Hannah, and we're ready to surprise her, we really made efforts for the special day, and I am thinking of my birthday on September where I'll be turning 20 and I think I am not 20 yet though. It's the 1st of July and it's about 3 months before that day will come.
I remembered, when I turned 18... I didn't expect that my family would surprise me because I don't like to have parties or what-so-ever. I just want something to treasure for my birthday. It was fun, where my high school friends came but my college friends didn't though because we are having our final exams... (I always have an exam during my birthday except my 19th birthday, because it was a Sunday). I already asked my mother about it, not to give me any celebration because I am planning to have it after I pass the Pharmacy board exam maybe next year. But still she didn't hear my plead and gave me a surprise party, but the rain (storm) ruined it (nakikiayon gid sa akon... I was never excited to have it since from the start, even thinking that I am 18 was far behind my imagination... where other girls or ladies like me are looking forward and are very much excited to have it... I don't even bother). The venue where it was patterned from the "Gryffindor common room" was not used because it was ruined, I didn't see it by the way, even a glimpse. But I was so happy when I saw my Harry Potter Cake, and the movie that my eldest sister made just for me... I cried when I had my birthday speech where I promised my family that I will be a pharmacist. I will cut this story out, I don't want to reminisce something... I just want to have it in my memory...
Last year, I also made some wish list and not a single gift from my wish list was granted, so here I am again... stating my wishlist. and hoping that when my birthday comes I may receive something... it will be extended for christmas!=)
Since I love to read, I will state the books I want to have...
* Harry Potter series (even though I already read all of them I still want to have them in my collection, I want it hard bound and I want them so bad!)
* Eragon, Eldest and Brisngr (it is authored by Christopher Paolini and I really do love the story and the elven language, I can't find Eragon in bookstores, only the Brisngr where I haven't read even just a word)
* Books authored by Paolo Coelho ( I already owned and read some of them but I want to collect his books, they are so nice especially the Alchemist)
* Count of Monte Cristo ( it is said to be one of the most favorite book of Dr. Jose Rizal and it is the only film showing in my high school days where I didn't fall asleep, and since I am a countess, I want to read a Book of a count!)
* Princess Diaries collection ( I am just an ordinary girl with extraordinary dreams and I'm a princess for some... I just want to read this!)
* Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events Collection ( I really do love them, especially Klauss!)
* Lord of the Rings Trilogy and other books authored by JRR Tolkiens ( I just love the old man)
* Goosebumps ( When I was young, and I'm still young... I used to collect them and I only stopped when the price was far beyond my allowance...)
* Nancy Drew (Carolyn Keene... I want to be a sleuth)
* Hardy Boys (Franklin Dixon... I just want some action while sleuthing)
* Sherlock Holmes (I already have the 2 volumes, authored by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle... Whew! My bedtime story!)
* Remington: The Science and Practice of Pharmacy 21st Ed, or 15th( I have the 20th, and it is good, though I haven’t finished reading this bible for pharmacist)
* USP (United States Pharmacopoeia, it is very expensive though)
* Dictionary ( English, Korean, Japanese, Chinese,Filipino, Elven, etc)
* Books authored by Mitch Albom (except Tuesday's with Morrie, already have it)
* Mythical creatures
* Recipe Book
* Books authored by Bob Ong
* Pugad Baboy collection
* Lastly, THE BIBLE...
It is not yet done... I also love music...=)
* Album of Westlife
* A1
* BSB
* Jonas Brothers
* F4 (taiwan)
* Blue
* David Archuleta
* David Cook
* Eraser Heads
* Jesse McCartney
* aaron carter
* High School Musical Soundtrack 2&3
* Album of Jay Chou (taiwan)
* Soundtrack of Boys over Flowers
* Pussycat Dolls (Jai Ho)
* MYMP
* OST of Transformers
* grand piano
* drums (set)
* guitar
* violin
I love music, it's a lot to mention and I can't remember all of them...=(
---Boardgames (to excercise my wit)
* Chess Board
* Games of the general
* scrabble
* anything that you can think of
i want Gadgets and Gizmos but I can't afford them now...=(
* Laptop (badly needed for research and thesis writing...=((
* a watch (digital)
* an Ipod video or iPhone
* a cell phone (wi-fi ready... music phone)
* digital camera
* sony psp slim (black)
* Nintendo DS
* a car (Lamborghini Diablo, and a race car)
* hmmmm.... I'll think again for more...
Hmmm... For the most expensive and almost impossible, (long term)
* A house and lot (preferrably a compound)
* trip to JAPAN, New Caledonia, London, Asia (tour around the world)
* to be in Hogwart or Harry Potter theme park (hoping someday it will come true)
* the car mention above
* have my own business
* a yacth
* to stargaze
* to be in 2 places at once
* to fly a plane
* to dance in a snow
* to sing under water
* to have world peace
* to eat every delicacies
* to meet my soulmate (hmmm... I wonder who he is)
I really appreciate if you gave me something from the heart like:
* a poem
* a story of my life (how you see me as a person)
* a chocolate
* a homemade cuisine
* bouquet of flowers (tulips, blue roses)
* a song (composed by you)
* and anything that you think would make me happy
My ultimate wishes that only Big Dad could give:
* to be a registered Pharmacist
* to die as a saint 9what do you think, huh?)
* to have a closer relationship with Big Dad
* safety of my family, relatives and friends
* longer life for my parents
* world peace again (love thy neighbors)
* to have wings and a halo (angel for short)
* I am a princess… I should have a prince… the chosen one… from Big Dad… (not now…I’m busy with my toxic schedule and I can’t handle them right now…lolz)
* to be in paradise with God
* to live my life in accordance to the Father
* and a lot of sleep ( I am deprived of it since I entered college)
I think it's a lot but, I just posted this for you to see what I think... I just posted this to keep myself striving and hoping, to have a goal... But I really posted this for you to accomplish my wish (act like a genie this time). Hehe... But I don't want to hope because I know that not all of you are reading my blog and not all of you are born with a golden spoon and fork in your mouth, it's just for fun... the rest is up to my prayers and the one who'll hear and answer it... The next thing I will do is, to put it in a balloon and send it to heaven to be heard, (as if my balloon would reach the stratosphere).=)
Early in the morning while I was taking a bath, my imagination started to fantasize and as if I am dreaming while I'm awake... It's the birthday of our nanay Hannah, and we're ready to surprise her, we really made efforts for the special day, and I am thinking of my birthday on September where I'll be turning 20 and I think I am not 20 yet though. It's the 1st of July and it's about 3 months before that day will come.
I remembered, when I turned 18... I didn't expect that my family would surprise me because I don't like to have parties or what-so-ever. I just want something to treasure for my birthday. It was fun, where my high school friends came but my college friends didn't though because we are having our final exams... (I always have an exam during my birthday except my 19th birthday, because it was a Sunday). I already asked my mother about it, not to give me any celebration because I am planning to have it after I pass the Pharmacy board exam maybe next year. But still she didn't hear my plead and gave me a surprise party, but the rain (storm) ruined it (nakikiayon gid sa akon... I was never excited to have it since from the start, even thinking that I am 18 was far behind my imagination... where other girls or ladies like me are looking forward and are very much excited to have it... I don't even bother). The venue where it was patterned from the "Gryffindor common room" was not used because it was ruined, I didn't see it by the way, even a glimpse. But I was so happy when I saw my Harry Potter Cake, and the movie that my eldest sister made just for me... I cried when I had my birthday speech where I promised my family that I will be a pharmacist. I will cut this story out, I don't want to reminisce something... I just want to have it in my memory...
Last year, I also made some wish list and not a single gift from my wish list was granted, so here I am again... stating my wishlist. and hoping that when my birthday comes I may receive something... it will be extended for christmas!=)
Since I love to read, I will state the books I want to have...
* Harry Potter series (even though I already read all of them I still want to have them in my collection, I want it hard bound and I want them so bad!)
* Eragon, Eldest and Brisngr (it is authored by Christopher Paolini and I really do love the story and the elven language, I can't find Eragon in bookstores, only the Brisngr where I haven't read even just a word)
* Books authored by Paolo Coelho ( I already owned and read some of them but I want to collect his books, they are so nice especially the Alchemist)
* Count of Monte Cristo ( it is said to be one of the most favorite book of Dr. Jose Rizal and it is the only film showing in my high school days where I didn't fall asleep, and since I am a countess, I want to read a Book of a count!)
* Princess Diaries collection ( I am just an ordinary girl with extraordinary dreams and I'm a princess for some... I just want to read this!)
* Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events Collection ( I really do love them, especially Klauss!)
* Lord of the Rings Trilogy and other books authored by JRR Tolkiens ( I just love the old man)
* Goosebumps ( When I was young, and I'm still young... I used to collect them and I only stopped when the price was far beyond my allowance...)
* Nancy Drew (Carolyn Keene... I want to be a sleuth)
* Hardy Boys (Franklin Dixon... I just want some action while sleuthing)
* Sherlock Holmes (I already have the 2 volumes, authored by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle... Whew! My bedtime story!)
* Remington: The Science and Practice of Pharmacy 21st Ed, or 15th( I have the 20th, and it is good, though I haven’t finished reading this bible for pharmacist)
* USP (United States Pharmacopoeia, it is very expensive though)
* Dictionary ( English, Korean, Japanese, Chinese,Filipino, Elven, etc)
* Books authored by Mitch Albom (except Tuesday's with Morrie, already have it)
* Mythical creatures
* Recipe Book
* Books authored by Bob Ong
* Pugad Baboy collection
* Lastly, THE BIBLE...
It is not yet done... I also love music...=)
* Album of Westlife
* A1
* BSB
* Jonas Brothers
* F4 (taiwan)
* Blue
* David Archuleta
* David Cook
* Eraser Heads
* Jesse McCartney
* aaron carter
* High School Musical Soundtrack 2&3
* Album of Jay Chou (taiwan)
* Soundtrack of Boys over Flowers
* Pussycat Dolls (Jai Ho)
* MYMP
* OST of Transformers
* grand piano
* drums (set)
* guitar
* violin
I love music, it's a lot to mention and I can't remember all of them...=(
---Boardgames (to excercise my wit)
* Chess Board
* Games of the general
* scrabble
* anything that you can think of
i want Gadgets and Gizmos but I can't afford them now...=(
* Laptop (badly needed for research and thesis writing...=((
* a watch (digital)
* an Ipod video or iPhone
* a cell phone (wi-fi ready... music phone)
* digital camera
* sony psp slim (black)
* Nintendo DS
* a car (Lamborghini Diablo, and a race car)
* hmmmm.... I'll think again for more...
Hmmm... For the most expensive and almost impossible, (long term)
* A house and lot (preferrably a compound)
* trip to JAPAN, New Caledonia, London, Asia (tour around the world)
* to be in Hogwart or Harry Potter theme park (hoping someday it will come true)
* the car mention above
* have my own business
* a yacth
* to stargaze
* to be in 2 places at once
* to fly a plane
* to dance in a snow
* to sing under water
* to have world peace
* to eat every delicacies
* to meet my soulmate (hmmm... I wonder who he is)
I really appreciate if you gave me something from the heart like:
* a poem
* a story of my life (how you see me as a person)
* a chocolate
* a homemade cuisine
* bouquet of flowers (tulips, blue roses)
* a song (composed by you)
* and anything that you think would make me happy
My ultimate wishes that only Big Dad could give:
* to be a registered Pharmacist
* to die as a saint 9what do you think, huh?)
* to have a closer relationship with Big Dad
* safety of my family, relatives and friends
* longer life for my parents
* world peace again (love thy neighbors)
* to have wings and a halo (angel for short)
* I am a princess… I should have a prince… the chosen one… from Big Dad… (not now…I’m busy with my toxic schedule and I can’t handle them right now…lolz)
* to be in paradise with God
* to live my life in accordance to the Father
* and a lot of sleep ( I am deprived of it since I entered college)
I think it's a lot but, I just posted this for you to see what I think... I just posted this to keep myself striving and hoping, to have a goal... But I really posted this for you to accomplish my wish (act like a genie this time). Hehe... But I don't want to hope because I know that not all of you are reading my blog and not all of you are born with a golden spoon and fork in your mouth, it's just for fun... the rest is up to my prayers and the one who'll hear and answer it... The next thing I will do is, to put it in a balloon and send it to heaven to be heard, (as if my balloon would reach the stratosphere).=)
Just A Little Respect, Will You?
This article can be found and read in my Friendster, Facebook and Blogspot, June 24,2009...
I can’t sleep, and it’s almost near the hour of two in the morning, I just want to recall what happened to my day, what have I done and what I forgot to do. This may sound hurtful in the middle but, “bato bato sa langit,tama-an huwag magalit.”
I am a Catholic, and I am proud to be one though others may find it filthy or whatsoever, I don’t care, as long as I live out my faith. I was born to be one and I will die as one. I was raised to be and that’s the only thing that my parent’s could give that will not be taken away, aside from education.
We celebrated the Red Mass or the Mass of the Holy Spirit this morning, I arrived on time but of course all seats are taken, especially that the freshmen in our department were high in number. Luckily, my friends reserved seats for us. The program began with the procession of the faculties and lastly of the Agustinian friars.
The mass began, I was concentrating because it is the highest form of prayer and it is our practice to keep silent during this time. Then, my classmates came in late, and they shared seats with us, I was just annoyed by the fact that, they came in late and they talk a lot. Could they not hear and see that the mass has started?
I felt so bad because some of them are catholics like me. I was really wondering if they know what’s the real meaning of the mass, the parts of it and stuffs alike. I was also wondering if they are going to church with their families or if their parents are telling them of the proper behavior during this time? I wonder!
The priest is reading the Gospel, and my classmates are talking loudly to each other, of course, your concentration will evaporate, no matter what you tell them, they keep on repeating what they are doing. So never mind them. I really hate to think that they are just there because of attendance. “Tani, kung mag gahod man lang sila kag mag pa gutok-gutok, didto na lang sila danay sa gwa, kag mag chikka to sila asta gusto nila, indi sila mag disturbo sa mga gusto mag simba.” I just can’t take it anymore, since first year, that’s the thing they are doing, if not talking, texting,listening to their iPods or mp3 players. Oh come on... a little respect please.
Then, one thing, just because you are not catholics, you don’t have the right to sabotage or disturb others. You enrolled in a Catholic institution and you know you need to follow rules and attend mass. Also, you don’t have the right to condemn our religion because we are not condemning yours, in fact whatever religion you may have, it is not an assurance that you will go to heaven, it is thy faith that can save you. I don’t care if you memorize the Bible, but the question is, are you practicing what you’ve read and memorize? I am not pointing anybody, I am just stating what my heart feels. Yes, some catholics may be a “salot ng lipunan” for your eyes, yet not all of us are the same. Please don’t generalized, we were raised differently and we were given different values to live by. Before you judge, think! Are all the members of your community are saints???
Another observation I had was, some of the people inside the gym don’t know what to answer or to speak a prayer or a statement. Have they experienced Flores de Mayo or what happened to the 6 semesters in Theology? Did their parents taught them anything about God or about their faith? It is really a shame, because I thought that all of us knows how to pray yet some don’t, in fact that they are studying and learning theology and enrolled in a catholic institution.
I know, that not all of us have the same outlook towards faith,mass and religion, yet all we need is respect. Especially to my fellow catholics who happened to have a faith that can be blown by the wind, no direction, no foundation. Maybe, I expect a lot since then, and I am really proud that my family are going to the mass together, and we had a good foundation. And I really hate to say this, but when I was back in high school, when we have an institutional mass, everyone is silent, everyone listens, everyone is in right behavior even if the seating arrangement maybe uncomfortable.
Okay, I am ready for the backfire comments, if you would ask me if, I am not doing all that I have mention, I will say no. The only thing that you can say is, “you are sleeping during the mass sometimes”, yes I do admit that sometimes I am sleeping, yet I am not disturbing anyone who might be listening, and if I am sleeping, it the lesser evil, I am just sleeping if the audio is not audible. I don’t compete with the speaker. Yeah, I am not perfect but in my little way to show that I care about my religion and my faith is bigger than I am, I want to see a difference in this world before I die. No one is perfect, by the way, unless you consider yourself to be one. I am trying my best to be good and live my life in a Christ’s like way, but if you think it is just another hypocrisy I don’t care what you think at all.
Maybe a little discipline and respect would do. I am just hurt by what other catholics are doing. That is why, sometimes I prefer to attend mass by myself, in that way I will have a date with the Lord without disturbances and with all my heart and attention.
I am sorry to those whom I hurt by posting this, yet I don’t know how you feel. You may be asking your conscience what have you done or your pride will prevail at its peak and just consider this post as a rubbish,a crap or whatever. I am really pleading that next time will be a lot more different especially now, that we are in our senior year.
Maybe sooner, you will know that faith can move mountains, I already experienced it, not once but all my life. I live because of miracle,faith, prayers,devotions and angels. If my life was taken way by PDA, it was PDA that restores it. Prayers,devotions and angels- that’s how I live the second time around.
“I love the Lord, He is filled with compassion, He turned to me on the day that I call. From the snares of the dark, Lord be my guide,be my strength.”
I can’t sleep, and it’s almost near the hour of two in the morning, I just want to recall what happened to my day, what have I done and what I forgot to do. This may sound hurtful in the middle but, “bato bato sa langit,tama-an huwag magalit.”
I am a Catholic, and I am proud to be one though others may find it filthy or whatsoever, I don’t care, as long as I live out my faith. I was born to be one and I will die as one. I was raised to be and that’s the only thing that my parent’s could give that will not be taken away, aside from education.
We celebrated the Red Mass or the Mass of the Holy Spirit this morning, I arrived on time but of course all seats are taken, especially that the freshmen in our department were high in number. Luckily, my friends reserved seats for us. The program began with the procession of the faculties and lastly of the Agustinian friars.
The mass began, I was concentrating because it is the highest form of prayer and it is our practice to keep silent during this time. Then, my classmates came in late, and they shared seats with us, I was just annoyed by the fact that, they came in late and they talk a lot. Could they not hear and see that the mass has started?
I felt so bad because some of them are catholics like me. I was really wondering if they know what’s the real meaning of the mass, the parts of it and stuffs alike. I was also wondering if they are going to church with their families or if their parents are telling them of the proper behavior during this time? I wonder!
The priest is reading the Gospel, and my classmates are talking loudly to each other, of course, your concentration will evaporate, no matter what you tell them, they keep on repeating what they are doing. So never mind them. I really hate to think that they are just there because of attendance. “Tani, kung mag gahod man lang sila kag mag pa gutok-gutok, didto na lang sila danay sa gwa, kag mag chikka to sila asta gusto nila, indi sila mag disturbo sa mga gusto mag simba.” I just can’t take it anymore, since first year, that’s the thing they are doing, if not talking, texting,listening to their iPods or mp3 players. Oh come on... a little respect please.
Then, one thing, just because you are not catholics, you don’t have the right to sabotage or disturb others. You enrolled in a Catholic institution and you know you need to follow rules and attend mass. Also, you don’t have the right to condemn our religion because we are not condemning yours, in fact whatever religion you may have, it is not an assurance that you will go to heaven, it is thy faith that can save you. I don’t care if you memorize the Bible, but the question is, are you practicing what you’ve read and memorize? I am not pointing anybody, I am just stating what my heart feels. Yes, some catholics may be a “salot ng lipunan” for your eyes, yet not all of us are the same. Please don’t generalized, we were raised differently and we were given different values to live by. Before you judge, think! Are all the members of your community are saints???
Another observation I had was, some of the people inside the gym don’t know what to answer or to speak a prayer or a statement. Have they experienced Flores de Mayo or what happened to the 6 semesters in Theology? Did their parents taught them anything about God or about their faith? It is really a shame, because I thought that all of us knows how to pray yet some don’t, in fact that they are studying and learning theology and enrolled in a catholic institution.
I know, that not all of us have the same outlook towards faith,mass and religion, yet all we need is respect. Especially to my fellow catholics who happened to have a faith that can be blown by the wind, no direction, no foundation. Maybe, I expect a lot since then, and I am really proud that my family are going to the mass together, and we had a good foundation. And I really hate to say this, but when I was back in high school, when we have an institutional mass, everyone is silent, everyone listens, everyone is in right behavior even if the seating arrangement maybe uncomfortable.
Okay, I am ready for the backfire comments, if you would ask me if, I am not doing all that I have mention, I will say no. The only thing that you can say is, “you are sleeping during the mass sometimes”, yes I do admit that sometimes I am sleeping, yet I am not disturbing anyone who might be listening, and if I am sleeping, it the lesser evil, I am just sleeping if the audio is not audible. I don’t compete with the speaker. Yeah, I am not perfect but in my little way to show that I care about my religion and my faith is bigger than I am, I want to see a difference in this world before I die. No one is perfect, by the way, unless you consider yourself to be one. I am trying my best to be good and live my life in a Christ’s like way, but if you think it is just another hypocrisy I don’t care what you think at all.
Maybe a little discipline and respect would do. I am just hurt by what other catholics are doing. That is why, sometimes I prefer to attend mass by myself, in that way I will have a date with the Lord without disturbances and with all my heart and attention.
I am sorry to those whom I hurt by posting this, yet I don’t know how you feel. You may be asking your conscience what have you done or your pride will prevail at its peak and just consider this post as a rubbish,a crap or whatever. I am really pleading that next time will be a lot more different especially now, that we are in our senior year.
Maybe sooner, you will know that faith can move mountains, I already experienced it, not once but all my life. I live because of miracle,faith, prayers,devotions and angels. If my life was taken way by PDA, it was PDA that restores it. Prayers,devotions and angels- that’s how I live the second time around.
“I love the Lord, He is filled with compassion, He turned to me on the day that I call. From the snares of the dark, Lord be my guide,be my strength.”
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