What’s my view about it. Well, love is a single word that has millions of meaning. It is either subjective or objective. People I know would usually ask me if I am in a relationship, but the answer is usually the same- a shrug and this statement “NBSB or no boyfriend since birth” , we made a group named, SISA_single and satisfied… Well, I think I am full of love that despite being single I can and still live. I don’t need someone to complete the puzzle.
Yes, for the sake of an argument, everybody needs someone. “No man is an island” as what saying goes, but it depends on how you look at it. From your own perspective and your own decisions. Why is there someone who can happily live being single all their life? It is because, they find solitude there, they find peace and they are pacified for the fact that if no one is with them, there is always God.
Why is there someone who is in a relationship that is not happy or contented? It is because, they don’t have contentment, they lack something and they keep on finding it through different relationships, and some people only opted to have a relatioship in order to be “in”, or for their own personal sake, have they realize that they are giving injustice to the other party? Have they realize that in a way or another they can hurt someone? Well, they should have think first before they act.
I maybe young, I maybe ideal, believing in happy endings and believing that there is someone really meant for me, he may not be my ideal count but he may be the one sent from above. I promised myself that if I have to love someone, I should only love one, and if there will be a guy that will probably be a part of my life, I will make sure that he is the one, now, in the future and if ever the time after forever. He will be the 4th guy who will be always special. God, dad, and ahia(big brother), it will never be replace by him.
Watching romantic films and reading novels makes me think and hope that there is and will be someone whom can I call my soul mate, my knight, my count and my dream boy… But I suddenly realize that there is no perfect relationship and pain is always present. As well as, in this time, I think that the clan of Adan were blacklisted! Love, it is what Jesus wants us to have, He died because of love, but can someone really sacrifice himself and his happiness for my sake? I asked that very often. I am still waiting for an answer!
I am happy being single, and I don’t know what to do if I have someone to take care of? I was used to be the one who is always taken cared of. I just want someone who will love me like my dad, who will protect me like my brother and who will be there every time I need help and who will be my healer when I’m in pain like my best friend-Jesus.
I maybe imagining things that’s bound to be lost in space. I may not be in a relationship, but I know how it feels to be in one. I have friends and I’m not that stupid or numb not to feel. But, I think I am just immune to cheesy lines and my brain knows its boundaries. The emergency button is always ready for assistance.
I may admire celebrities, stars or even not, but I think it is just up to admiration and friendship, is the only relationship I can offer at the moment. Someone told me that, soon enough I will open my heart and mind for the possibility of meeting the Harry Potter of my life, well, I am always open but I just can’t break my promise!
What is that promise? Of course, my parents are strict and they want us to finish our studies first before getting into a relationship, and I really promised my family and myself to accomplish what I want in my life and what I really wanted to do before engaging myself into another tangle.
Lastly, I still didn’t find the man who is strong and brave enough to cross the bridge. ( Next blog, what I want in a man and how I want to be courted! Toinx)
Single is never dull! Single is better than a relationship that will lead to a broken heart…=)
true that!!! apir! =)
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