Oh! I hate This!!!!

Think… Think… Think… (I’m thinking what to write! I’m so lost for words, even Mr. Webster can’t help, nor the Encarta!).

I’m just visiting this blog of mine, I forgot what I’m about to share or to write or something… (I don’t know what it is, maybe my partial and selective amnesia was triggered!)

HMmmmm…. I can’t remember anything to post! This sucks! What a crap, a managaing editor of the college department yet can’t compose a blog of her own experiences! What a shame!=(

Ok, since I glanced at the picture on our dresser, I remember the latest Harry Potter movie… Hmmm… I was a little bit disappointed, no! I was frustrated! I expected a lot from it! It seems like almost all fans were disappointed not only me and my beloved sister. I watched it on the premiere even if its costly and I’m not feeling well enough still, I went to watch it! (I’m trying to forget this!) But Harry looks so nice there especially after drinking the felix felicis, and went to see Hagrid! =)

Hmmm…Now, I remember! My brain is finally working though my neurons causes a lot of problems for me. For the past months and weeks, I keep on coming back to the hospital and laboratories for my lab test, while I am always seeing a doctor! Whoa! If how many pesos left my pocket every time I do these, I don’t know and I’m not counting cause it hurts a lot! I have this bruise on my arms… After the injection! Take note, both!

What else??? Oh yeah! I have a very long quiz in Pharmacology and Therapeutics 2, tomorrow and I don’t know what to study first and how will my brain absorb all information I will store into it. Take note, it’s just a quiz but it’s a big deal for us, cause once you fail, it will be harder for you to catch up on your grades. I will read the lecture notes from page 15 to page 50. It is just a quiz, because the exam on Tuesday will be a lot longer, the whole lecture notes and a 30+ pages from the previous lectures. How good is that? IT is our life! Sleep for us is a blessing! Sleepless nights are normal for us, we are looking forward to it every now and then, not only on exam weeks but the entire school year! =)

The main reason is getting to the finish! I cried a lot this afternoon without knowing what caused the tears to fall. They just keep on falling, like the water on a falls or a faucet! I keep on asking myself why? Yet no matter what I do, I just can’t figure out, I just can’t find the answer. It is better to answer a dosage problem than to answer my query. I just don’t know! Now, I’m lost again!

I don’t know how to finish this but I must stop right now, because my stomach is grumbling from hunger! See you on my next post!=)
Headaches…
July 11, 2009 • No Comments (Edit)

Oh no! I’ve been having this on and off headaches since jun and will turn a month on the 14th… I just don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m sick and tired yet, I don’t know what’s the real score about my health! I’ve been taking medicines and a medicine kit is always inside my bag, that’s why, I don’t go out without a bag.

I just don’t understand, I’ve changed my glasses because I thought that it will stop the headahces I have… I had this complicated status about my eyes, yet the headaches didn’t go away… I was so doomed! I need to study til late at night but I can’t just because of this stupid headache that I need to fight… I would just sleep to keep myself away from the pain, but sometimes even if I sleep, I can’t get rid of HA… I am sacrificing my studies due to my health, yet I don’t know what to do…

I need to see a specialist, yet this afternoon, all the specialist in Bacolod is not around. I was not checked! What if I had this something in my head and my life is in danger? I need to find this doctor in Iloilo because I can’t go home for almost a month or two because of thesis writing and Pharmacology classes every Saturday for the whole month of August! Oh crap!

I am diverting myself to happy thoughts to forget that I have this HA… Yet no matter what I do, I can feel the pain. It is not triggered by the rays of the sun nor the radiation coming from this monitor, or even from too much of watching tv because we don’t have a tv in our room in Iloilo… Not even by reading books. Because sometimes even if I just sit around and listen to my teachers talking and making lectures I can feel the pain.

My sister asked me to rate the pain, when I experienced the first excruciating pain, it was more than 10, but the super “kulit” headaches I’m having it is about 6-7 or sometimes more than that! oh no!And I am really wondering why is it that the pain seems to rotate in every lobe of my head. Sometimes I can feel it in my frontal lobe,sometimes in my temporal…

I hope that I can reach all my dreams before I say goodbye to this not so good world! I need to be strong! I need to know what’s the cause of this crappy headache…