I don't know what I am feeling right now, I feel so tired, depressed, excited yet I feel so different. I feel so incomplete. I feel so ALONE.

Yes, tomorrow is my birthday, but I feel that it is will be just an ordinary day like just any other day, the only fact is, I was born this day, 23 years ago. Time pass by so fast that I happen not to notice that I am turning 23 in a few hours. Still, I don't know what I want, and I don't know what I feel. Maybe, today is the worst feeling I have. :(

basta indi gid ko kabalo sang akon nabatyagan, kag indi ko maichindihan ang akon na feel. hayz!

Can't Sleep

I need sleep because I will have my early morning shift tomorrow, as well as class in the afternoon! I want to sleep but then I just can't. I don't know why. I feel so sleepy yet I can't close my eyes. I miss you already! :( I can't deny this no more. I am under your spell, without knowing I fell for you again. Why oh why? Bakit sa iyo pa? Bakit ikaw pa? Kung alam ko na man na ni minsan hindi mo ako nagustuhan at hinding hindi mo magugustuhan. Hindi ako ang weakness ko, pero ikaw ang weakness ko. Hindi kita pinangarap pero ano ba itong ginagawa mo? Alam ko namang wala akong aasahan sa iyo, pero hindi ko napigilan ang sarili kong gustuhin ka, hindi ko napigilan ang sarili kong mahalin kang muli kahit pa na alam ko naman na may ibang mahal ka. :'(

I wish, everything will be alright for my birthday, everything will be fine, everything will be okay. I wish happiness, love and peace, especially the peace of mind. I wish that everything will fall into place.

This month, I am short in post. =(

I wish, to be with my friends, the true and best ones. I wish that I could see my future in a happy spirit. I wish that I could face my fears and live my life in the fullest.

Why Don't You Try?

Sometimes, I am wondering if you and I have something going on between us, but I know we don't have anything, sometimes you act so sweet while at times you act differently. Sometimes, you say words I never expected you to say, and sometimes I expect to hear something from you, but I heard nothing. Sometimes I am wondering why I miss you though there were never a time that we see each other. Sometimes I am wondering why I get jealous where in fact there is no reason why I should. I am wondering why are we like this, though we have nothing to wonder. Because you and I are just plain friends. Maybe, just maybe those little conversations we are having gives me joy, happiness I just can't explain, those little talk about our future make we want to try it out with you, I know that you are not my ideal guy, where in fact you are the total opposite of what I wanted. But then, I just can't help falling in love with you for the nth time. You know me very well and I know you too, but then I am still afraid, because you never said anything about liking me, you always like someone else, those girls that's on your league, while I am just there by your side, as always, as a friend. I am afraid to cross the line, because if I do, I am afraid to lose the friendship that we have, the friendship that I am taking care of, the friendship that is my only connection to you. I am afraid that if I do, we'll lose the friendship and the connection, I am just too damn afraid to lose you, despite the fact that you will lose more if I do.You know, despite the fact that I know you so well, it didn't hinder me from liking you. Now, you will be away for months and I don't know what will happen, I just wish you good luck, God bless and be safe always. By the way, why don't we try it being together when you get back?

See You When I See You

Yes, maybe I just see you whenever I see you, whenever there's a chance of meeting you, I believe that I told you, "if we're meant to be, we will be together, maybe not now but maybe forever." I still believe that if we are not together now, maybe we will be in the future, so better behave there. I will wait for you.

Are You One of Them?

Why is it that there are really people who are fond of talking behind your back? Whose only purpose here on earth is to talk sh*t (sorry for the foul word) about you, whose sole objective is to bring you down. Who likes to say words against you, who curse you without your knowing, why do they exist when in fact, we don't actually need them to make this world a better place. I don't want to be mean or something, but I just let karma do it on its own time.

In every person's life story, there will always be a wicked witch, jealous sisters, envious friends, one true love, fairy god-mothers, and you will always get hurt, but then you should learn how to stand up and fight. Besides, if you're not happy, then it's not yet the end of the story, because every story should end up happy, life goes on and we also need to move on, just like the pages of the book, every page is important, the book will be dull and without spice if there's a ripped page or two. You can never call it complete, its always the same with our days, one single day is always important in our life, because it makes up our story, it is a part of it, so always make your day worthy and always enjoy every moment! It will never happen again twice! =)