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I can now fully understand what my teachers felt when we were just students. How they felt when they're making the exam papers and what they felt when they're checking it. What they felt when their students weren't able to reach the cut off score and just fail, what they felt when they saw the score of their students for a very easy exam. I can fully understand their situation, now that I am a teacher and was able to check my first exam for my first time of being a teacher.

I really feel so bad. That despite all the things and efforts you've made to make it easy for them, even though you're spoon feeding them, giving them everything they need it's not yet enough. Maybe I'm just expecting too much from them, or maybe I expected them to be like us, who were afraid to fail, who were too afraid to repeat and who feared to cheat.

As I was checking the papers, I was so depressed to see that almost all of my students failed the exam, that almost half or more never got it to the cut off.  And they had time to take it as a joke. As an educator, it's never easy to see them fail, it's never easy to teach a lesson, and it's never easy to see your students treating your class as a joke. I know that I had done my best, I gave my best efforts and I just hope that my students will do their part.

I don't want to be a princess of doom but in this case, maybe I just be who I was called for, a pharmacist and I will just accept that, maybe it's high time that I will be more strict.