I had a very, very, very bad day this morning! I had experienced the worst morning shift in my entire week. I had faced a lot of problems since the start of my shift until the very end. I just wish I am like a doll--heartless, insensitive and numb. Sometimes I wish I were different, I wish I'm not too kind or too good. Sometimes, I just want to be someone who don't care, someone who just stand by at the sidelines, not who I am who always the one to solve others' problems, the someone everyone can lean on to, the someone who never get tired, the someone whose patience is beyond compare, but then, no matter how kind and good-hearted you are, you may reach your peak and eventually explode.
I am the kind of person that is truly kind and nice in nature, but once you've done something wrong, you've abused my kindness, then my kindness is not that big compared to my bad side. People never knew the real me, all they had seen is my kindness and sweetness, they had never seen the dark side of myself, the part where I could kick some butt and slap your face.
My patience is getting thinner.
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