I'm Still Here

To whom it may concern I am not a charity case and I don't need your pity. I didn't ask for you to love me back, or I mean like me back. I didn't ask you to make friends with me, you were the one who ask me to be your friend, and being naturally good-natured, kind and sweet,I accepted you for who you are, I trusted you and I am being true to every words and actions I've said and done. I have no pretensions and I have no reason to do it. I don't know what is your real intentions towards me, is it purely friendship, do you like me but you're too shy to tell or is there something else? I don't want to assume and I don't want to presume, I just want to have a clear answer so that I will know my place, I will know my limitations and I will know your side of the story. I admit, I had a crush on you and I had been thinking about having you as my boyfriend in the near future, I believed when you said that you were single and you were not courting anyone, but then when I knew that you were in a relationship, that trust was broken, the like I had for you melted. I swore that I will never like you anymore, I didn't hate you for lying, I just don't like the way it turned out between us, but I never stopped being your friend, our communication had died when you had your relationship, but then when you broke up, you're here again, bugging me like nothing happened. I don't blame you because you didn't know that I like you and you don't have anything to do about it, its just that you don't have to be so sweet and act like you care when you actually don't. You don't have to be so kind, when all you want to do is walk away. You don't have to act like you like me to be your friend when I feel like I am the only one being a friend. I don't actually count the things I did and will be doing for you, because I am your friend and no matter what happen it will never change, it will never stop until you're the one who will push me away. I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did but then I don't want to tell you about it, and now, I am happy to say that I think, I just think that I will never ever have you, especially now that I think you're drifting away, that you're changing into someone new, someone I don't know. I may not know who you really are, I don't know all simple things a friend should know, but then I will always be here when you need me. My friends keep on telling me that we're good together but then, they're the only one who can notice, you will never ever notice me I know, cause in your heart, she's the only one you know, she's the only one you will give your heart to, I can't do anything about it and the only thing I know is, I am just here.